I am depressed going through this perimenopause hell! I don't like anyone right about now. I don't like my kids or other family members. My nerves are a wreck. I'm not sure who's body this is I am walking around in but it feels like some alien from another planet has taken over my mind and body. Most days I walk around in a fog. My digestive system is terrible. I have Acid Reflux (GERD) and have been running back and forth to the hospital with severe gas pressure and bloating. Had an endoscopy done on the 8th and all they saw was a large Hiatal Hernia (which I knew I had), but everything else was fine. My vajayjay is out of wack, my periods are this horrible brown color (not red anymore) and I'm just about the explode at any moment for any reason. Can't sleep at night because I wake up drenched, soaking wet! I declare there is some type of meno monster pouring water on me while I sleep! Ha! I don't care about anything at this time. All I want to do is crawl up in a corner and be left alone. This from a social butterfly and a former Hostess with the Mostess.... has ruined my life overall. I am single and live alone and if it was not for this forum, I would sware that I am losing my damn mind. Any words of encouragement would help. Oh, and because of a history of heart disease in my family, my doc won't put me on any HRT.