I've been in bed most of the weekend fighting the dizziness that just doesn't want to leave. I got up long enough to go to church and that always gives me some hope. This is an ugly disease for sure. I have learned to appreciate the few good days more and not push myself too hard on the bad days. Although I've had MD or 30 years it didn't get really bad until after I retired so I didn't have to face going to work feeling so sick. My heart aches for you today rose and I will keep you in my prayers.

Amen I honestly don't think I could manage without Jesus either.

so sorry Rose and so glad that you have faith to keep going; my payers to you and your family namaste!

Thanks for all your prayers. I may face another problem. My mammogram came out abnormal. I am 42 and has being doing mammogram from I was 38. I believes our body talk. and something is wrong. I am at a high risk for both breast cancer and colon cancer. I do not my family history. That"s why I said life is unfair. On Thursday I have to go back to the hospital for a test. I am not in the mood for anything, but I love Jesus with all my heart. What makes it harder, I have no family only friends and my church family. So I feel like I fight along with no human help, but God. Sometimes I get tired but God gives me the strength to go on another day etc, I have back to back health changes and its wearying me out now at 42. I want to keep fighting but do know know if I have the energy to. For me its has being a hard road these 42 years. I keep telling myself joy cometh in the morning. And it does. Sorry to vent. anyways later

There are days I feel the same so you are not alone. I always look at it that someone else has it worse than I do, I suck it up and move on. It's not easy, at times, to be positive with MD but knowing I'm not alone helps, since those around me try to understand but can't. So sorry to hear about the mammogram. Maybe it will turn out to be a false positive. You are in my prayers.

True. Thanks

Rose, I have been there and I pray that your results are the same. I had a benign cyst. I remind myself that it rains on the just and unjust. Illness is no respecter of person. It stinks.
However God does not lead you anywhere that you have to walk alone. Cry, scream, but keep going to work because it gives you less time to think of the worse. Find a song that lifts you up and play it whenever you drift towards the worse scenario. Remember that faith the size of a mustard seeds still moves mountains. God will help you over this mountain. I'm sending a hug and prayers for
benign results.

Thanks liftupmyeyes thanks. You are right. I now find myself listening to music that I love. I now await my result. They are investigating/studying what they saws on mine. That what makes me a bit uneasy. My first mammogram was when I was 38 a few year back but I did a biopsy. But now the right one they are taken a different approach. Plus my energy is low and i still try to do fun things but its hard. But I do know that God will and is with me. I am just so tried all the time.