Loneliness Support Group
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any...
I was here a few years ago, but I had no access to my email account to reset the password, so I recently created this new account. A few of the things I wrote then I recently found, and have to say that I still feel this way a lot of the time. I may post them from time to time. Occasionally something takes me and makes me write. Does not happen often, but it makes me fell a little better putting it out into the void, kind of gets it off my mind
It is hard to describe
A blackness in your soul
A knife into your very being
That feeling when you stand on the edge of a mountain
And look down
The noise you hear in the middle of the night
That jumps you awake from a peaceful deep sleep
Every fear you have
Comes to assault you at the same time
Pounding your mind from every direction
Determined that it be the one that makes it through
Not feeling the touch of another
Gently stroking that stray hair from your cheek
Taking your hand in their’s as you walk
Curling into you on the sofa as you watch TV
Knowing when you awake the only thing you will see that day
Is your reflection in the mirror
Knowing that the only person you will talk to that day
Is yourself
That feeling you get when your first awake
That transition from when for the briefest of moments
You in your sleep have forgotten
And then reality awakens
And crawls its way into your conscious
And you then remember
You are alone
Writing how you're feeling, sharing your troubles on a site like this can be a help. I hope it helped you at the time.
Are you still in the exact same position you were then? Or has your situation changed at all? In other words... what bought you back here?
I thought things would get better when I made that realisation, and for a short time I thought I was moving on within myself. I started loosing weight, going to the gym etc. But then the depression hit me like a steam train and all the self loathing and hatred came flooding back. My food addiction took hold and I started to spire out of control. Putting all the weight back on (and more), stopped going to the gym, stopped doing anything again
It has taken me 2 and a half years to really pull myself out of that depression, but I am there now. My head is in the place where I can start to address things like my addiction with food. I am an addict
That will leave me with the loneliness I have (and looking back over my 47 year, I have ALWAYS had). The realisation that I will never have that special someone to share the days and nights with (and again looking back, I don't think I ever did really). But I do not want that to run my life anymore. I MUST get control of my head else I really believe that I will literally eat myself to death in the next 5-10 years. If I can just start to have some love for myself, then that will be at least one person other than my parents, that loves me. That will have to do I think
So that is why I am back. I need help and support to keep me on track. And if I can help and support one person, then it will all be worthwhile