So I haven't been on here in years because my life has been pretty happy and decent. The past few weeks however have been hell. In December I told my once best friend to f off for screwing up my relationship that I ended up bailing out of. My friend hadn't been close to me anymore and was saying I'd hurt her and all this but not being supportive of me and was treating me like a bad person. I havent talked to her since but now I'm stuck in class where I have no real friends and shes in the same situation... It ruins my day to go in there because seeing her is like a knife through my chest. I want to talk to her and make things the way they were but I'm afraid. Our mutual friends have told me she took what I said to her really hard and that made me feel even worse. I'm so out of place.
One other thing is I can't travel to this town anymore without feeling like im the only one there. Someone i used to care about and love deeply has moved a few hours away and now theres a huge void hanging over me. Too many memories were made there and now its all gone. I can't share them with nobody in the town. (Its small btw, only a few hundred people.) I can't go into detail about this situation but I can say I wasn't ready for this. It was a place I was so happy and now everything seems empty.. pretty much how i am with all that has gone on lately.
I'm not asking for support or anything with this.. I think i should really talk to her. I just needed to get this off my chest.