Loneliness Support Group
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any...
ok, i'm willing to admit i have no life off the internet: no relatives, no friends, no car, no television, no cellphone, "only" disability money.
but, "i'm still here, damn it" (to quote papillion, as he escaped from devils island, at end of movie).
And, i'm better off than i was age 18 through 20, when, after a really bad event, i went into such a major reclusive depression that my only haircut was when i used sizzors in front of the bathroom mirror.
my enormously crazy, cold-hearted, drunken, parents only emotions towards me were shame and anger, with them telling people i lived out of state when i was in that seclusion.
Since 2006, i have about ten minutes of real life conversations, total, a week, and then with cashiers at stores. When i was in avoidant personality group at yahoo, i found out there are people who even have less contact with outside world.
So, right now, with memories of around thanksgiving 2001 when my mom, my last close relative, died in the hospital, and my rabid guilt of okaying her operations...through my dec. birthday...and my dad committing suicide new year's eve 1982...with me later having to identify his green corpse after it was fished out the river...i will be pigging out posting in some groups, hoping to get this all out of my system for a better next year.
but, "i'm still here, damn it" (to quote papillion, as he escaped from devils island, at end of movie).
And, i'm better off than i was age 18 through 20, when, after a really bad event, i went into such a major reclusive depression that my only haircut was when i used sizzors in front of the bathroom mirror.
my enormously crazy, cold-hearted, drunken, parents only emotions towards me were shame and anger, with them telling people i lived out of state when i was in that seclusion.
Since 2006, i have about ten minutes of real life conversations, total, a week, and then with cashiers at stores. When i was in avoidant personality group at yahoo, i found out there are people who even have less contact with outside world.
So, right now, with memories of around thanksgiving 2001 when my mom, my last close relative, died in the hospital, and my rabid guilt of okaying her operations...through my dec. birthday...and my dad committing suicide new year's eve 1982...with me later having to identify his green corpse after it was fished out the river...i will be pigging out posting in some groups, hoping to get this all out of my system for a better next year.
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A tree outside where I live is dying, seemingly from dog urine----with the bully in my building going out his way to not only have his dog urinate there but to have the dog urinate on the fence and sign I bought to try save the tree----and then slide the sign under my apt door.Turns out that was a TRIGGER for me----bullying and humialtion right out of high school. I didn't realize it at the...
Take care friend.
this is probably the last year for my elderly cat, which is probably the major reason for me acting up. I keep on hoping he goes in his sleep, since, in 2001 - 2006, i had to ok my mom taken off life support, and put a dog and 2 cats to sleep.
And # of people i've known, though slightly, seem to have a age 50 something life span, with me at almost 55, seemingly ready for logans run.
thanks again.
the only reason i have a computer is because i got hit by a truck, got a broken leg, and out of the blue an insurance settlement from it.
cause of my rabid guilt, with cat to sleep months prior, some of that money went to a cat shelter, with rest blown elsewhere.
my grandfather, 10 years before i was born, hit by a car and died; his son/my uncle 2 years later hit by a car and died, other son/uncle found under bridge months after their mom's death, another uncle died in loonie bin, my dad's suicide, my mom hit by a car and died---if i didnt have articles and death certificates, even i wouldnt believe such craziness.
hoping you have a good thanksgiving, TheStorm.
I also cut my own hair in front of the mirror and have done so for many years. It saves a lot of money.
I can only speak for myself, but I am sure that many of us really appreciate what you share.
hoping your dog stays healthy, and goes quietly in his/her sleep---as i keep hoping my cat goes quietly in his sleep.
sorry to hear about the decision you had to make re your mom. even though i didnt get along with my mom, i lost about 20 pounds in 2 months during her hospital stay, cause she was my last close relative.
i am amazed, sometimes with shivers at the thought, that my cat and me are still here.
and i appreciate what you said too, chris1976