Right now you are your own worst enemy. Do you keep yourself isolated? Do you avoid eye contact with others in your school? Have you tried engaging anyone in your classes in anyway? It might be out of your comfort zone but try engaging someone with a question about an assignment. That's the start of a conversation that isn't something pulled out of the air and can be discussed so it won't feel strained and fake. And in the meantime keep coming here. We are your friends and you won't be alone

yea I do try that but then it never goes anywhere. I know I'm my own worst enemy and I just don't know how to get out of the mindset that I am not good enough and that no one would want to be my friend.

It sounds difficult to be dealing with the loss of your friend to drugs and not having any family to support you. It may be a good start to set up an appointment with a counselor on campus so you have some support and guidance when it comes to reaching out to others. It can be hard to make new friends, and we all need and deserve a little support sometimes <3
It may also be helpful to join a support group if there is one near you. Support groups can often be a non-threatening way to learn how to communicate with your peers.

I know that feeling of conversations that never seem to go anywhere, and it's frustrating. Hang in there though...it may take some time and effort, but you will find healthy, stable people to surround yourself with.

Wishing you peace.

thanks, yea it is just very hard for me to find friends that are my age. The last job I had as a waitress I made some friends, they always wanted to hang out which made me feel very good, only to find out they were heavy into drinking and coke. I just want nice normal friends that want to do healthy things together and support one another but I haven't had one of those since high school

Connie,

Do not isolate yourself. I have been there and it's not good at all. You will find a positive circle of friends who aren't into Drugs and Alcohol. Hang in there.

Thery have dating sites for finding friends. I googled a couple for you:

https://www.cosmopolitan.com/sex-love/a24799641/best-friendship-apps/

https://friendmatch.com/

how can I find these people? :/

I'm really sorry you're struggling with this. You sound like a lovely, sensitive person who would make a great friend and also a great mom! Maybe try to explore a hobby or interest you have, take a class, join a volunteer group, anything to meet people in a non-forced setting who you have things in common with. Keep trying, don't give up, you have so much to offer. God bless!

Meetup.com is a place you can go to find groups of people with common interests

I advise meetup groups over dating sites. I find I do meet many at work, not really planned. But with spending so much time there kinda common for me. I think in college you meet some I made some good friends in college. Definently need healthy friends tho so commend you on keeping your standards. We need positive influences. But I very sorry you feel so bad and lonely it's not easy feeling.

I Connieg2. Welcome to DS. I have not had close familial relationships and have dealt w/ feelings of loneliness for many years. I can tell you though, as a nurse, you will inevitably become close w/ your fellow staff. A little work family is created. It is also nice to see how others who have strong relationships w/ others and their families live their lives. You'll probably get a lot of invites. Focus on your education. Let our forum know if you how you are doing or if you need any guidance. Hugs :)

I go to a Meetup hiking group at least once a week; I think Meetup is a great idea. I say that after having served my sentence on match.com for a year and a half. (I do not regret my experiences there, but enough was enough.) Connieg2...I agree with the post above...there is nothing you wrote that indicates that you would not be a good mom.

I just wrote to another person in the Loneliness group too about Meetup.com just like RiSober did. there are so many groups there and surely some sort of hobby that appeals to you. I also highly recommend Toastmasters International. There are clubs everywhere. They are so welcoming to new members and help shy people feel like heroes until bit by bit your shyness evaporates. Much luck to you.

I know it can be hard sometimes being long day was going to be too I would love to be your friend anytime I try to take up something