Are you seeing a doctor and a therapist? You have been thru a lot and need help to get thru it. It's understandable. It's a good group here so welcome and keep posting. There is a new life waiting.

Sounds very rough right now. Don't give up. You do have purpose in life even if it doesn't feel like it now. I find prayer helpful.

would doctor support going onto disability? I guess without a job income and money woes are coming....disability helped me stop my worrisome self from fretting about where the rent was going to come from

thanks u all for the welcome .. I am seeing a pain doc , but things are not under control .. plz tell me how to combat lonliness

Hello and welcome!
I'm sorry that so far the pain dr hasn't found the right combo of meds for you-keep on them to find the right mixture for you :)
Lonilness? What are your hobbies/crafts that you can do? Those help a person meet others with the same interests/
I'm sorry you lost your job but is there any type of volunteer work or even just visiting others in senior homes or hospitals? That way you can control your time schedule and yet help you and others at the same time

Thanks Annette for empathazing ,
Your advice well taken.
Doc s are yet to Find a Magic potion for pain ailment.
could you help me out cultivating a hobby or ways to ward of negative destructive thought process... which i often do

Sure I can help you find a hobby ...what are your interests? If you really can't nail one down then just wander the internet-you have the world in your pocket..you can travel anywhere and learn about everything there is...then when you find a thing or two then I'm sure a hobby can come of it