You can start here. You have people willing to listen and relate. You must definitely are not alone. Come join us this holiday season

I can so relate to what you're saying. I'm at the point where I don't want to continue living in this area anymore. It was fine while I was married, but I've been widowed for 2 1/2 years and it seems like there's no one I can relate to, or who can support me in my dream of moving back to my home town, which is 200 miles away. I have no family here and there is the promise that there would be family in my home town. I don't belong in assisted living and that is where I'm stuck, thanks to a social worker who advised me after my husband died that that was where I belong. She was wrong, and unfortunately I'm stuck with another social worker who won't even sit down and have a talk with me about what my needs are. And I've tried to get assigned to another social worker without luck so far. Now I've come to believe that a social worker is not the answer, but I do need some support from somewhere and this is the only place I've found where I receive it.

Join the gang. Another holiday alone. Lots of us in the same boat here.
I did the same as you, tried numerous things to be around people and possibly make friends. Did Volunteering, church, Took classes, exercise classes also, making small talk, etc. Nada. Nothing worked. My rock bottom moment was the day when I was at the bus stop. I used to take the same bus at the same time every day when I was working. I'd see the same exact people every single day for at least 2 years. No one ever spoke. So I started with "Good Morning"! most just turned their back on me. Only one person responded and didn't say anything else, didn't even greet me again next morning. And i'd see these people every day!! That's my rock bottom moment. I stopped trying. Stopped everything. I just finally accepted that it is what it is, and there's nothing more I can do about it. I learned to accept it. It's still the same way, but I'm happier because I'm doing pleasant things alone and not stressing over trying so hard. You'll hit your rock bottom too, and will accept it one day.

I am so sorry you are feeling alone, this time of year is difficult for so many. Please know that we are here for you when you need support. I find that sometimes I am awkward when it comes to forming new friendships, almost like I try too hard..... Maybe reach out to some new groups, new classes, or new churches, or possible volunteer opportunities. Maybe you can find someone who relates well to you, I know this is much easier said than done. Prayers to you.....