I have been upset for 3 days.  Actually, I haven't been doing well since January.  I feel on the verge of a nervous breakdown a lot.  People in my life are driving me crazy with their stupidity and neediness.  I feel like I am on a level by myself.  Right now I'm upset because my best friend, who has a boyfriend and is unfaithful, asked my guy friend to hang out.  He doesn't know she has a boyfriend.  I am going to have dinner with him tomorrow night.  I am afraid that I am going to start crying and tell him the truth.  She will be furious with me.  She already broke 2 guys' hearts.  She's not on my level morally.  She has become quite the liar and cheater.  She just needs attention 24/7.  I am trying not to break away from her for a third time.  She is actually very good to me.  She came and buried my cat, who I miss more than anything and she bought me groceries when I had Covid.  I am supposed to make macaroni salad today.  I am fighting anxiety.  I feel very lonely.  I had to cancel my much needed shrink appointment yesterday because of switching over to a prescription plan and not being covered yet.  I'm leaving out important details.  My guy friend talks to my best friend about sex.  She gets herself into these situations all the time.  But she doesn't want the guys to know she has a boyfriend.  She thinks she's being faithful because she won't have sex with anyone else.  I tried to address this once before and she told me off.  I hope you are having a better day than I am.