I understand that, I just came to the realization lately that sometimes without any reason.. no drama, not a word, friendships fade because well life goes on... I mean who doesnt want super close friends? I think as humans we all need that intamacy at some level... its nice to have that. But the truth is darling, developing those friendships /relationships in general/ take time, it takes time to get to know someone... I am sorry you feel alone, yet isnt that such an inevitable human trait :( sucks. Yah... well, DS is here and I am too if youd like to add me as a friend. Lately for me, ive just been focusing a lot on myself... its okay to be selfish, people will come and go but no one will look out for you as best as you can for yourself. In other words learn to love yourself :) I do things alone a lot and really grew to enjoy it... a few years ago, i dreaded taking the bus anywhere. Today I went shopping by myself downtown, had lunch and just treated myself... it was nice :) It takes time to get comfortable with one self, but we are with ourselves 100% of the time, cuz where ever we run to, we end up running unto our selves, so why not try to love ourselves?... I am rambling but feel free to pm me. I hope this helps anyways! wishing you better days and letting you know, you arent alone :)

sounds like my life history....at age 58

take special care of yourself, read up about relationships/etc...so you dont wind up like me at 58

good luck.

I agree with Lucille. The greatest gift you can share with the world is to know yourself and enjoy your own company and surroundings. Sometimes we're so deeply immersed in our own minds that we lose connection with the beauty and joy of simply being alive. And there is no greater joy then life.

Physical practices like yoga help us connect with this reality - life. Our breath is with us 24 hours a day and most the time we're not really connected to this vital force that keeps us going. The more we can become conscious of our natural rhythm, feel our breath mindfully then the chatter of the mind has no other option then to fade into the background and joy makes it's rightful appearance and then you become an expression of that joy, eyes become brighter, a furrowed brow releases, and your heart naturally feels lighter and connected for no other reason then the joy of life.

Friendships begin to manifest spontaneously, not from need, from shared appreciation of the simple joy of being.

Your longing is deeper then to have friends. It's to feel alive and connected in a healthy way.

I suggest YouTube Mooji. He's a spiritual teacher, mentor, best friend. His words and happiness is trustworthy and inspiring and truly of the highest understanding of what our hearts need.

Xo

thank you for all of the kind comments!

I think society also conditions our thinking in that it's normal and easy to have lots of good friends but I think in reality is that most of us only have one or two or none even. Most are just people we see here and there. And that most of us are just good at putting on a mask and keep up with an image that we have many people in our lives that are close. But I agree love yourself be your own friend.