I am excited. I get to hang out with a friend that I haven't seen in a few months. I try to stay in touch but he and his husband both work alot and very busy. My fiance and I double date with them sometimes but I used to go to their house alot and have a good time.

I have been reading a book about introverts. I am introverted, and I suspect most of my friends are as well. I am learning that often when I don't hear from a friend for awhile it isn't because they are rude, they are just like me and like staying home, don't want to bother me, or are nervous about social situations.

I want to make a goal to reach out more. Yesterday I tried really hard to get a friend to come with me to an event after work. She said she had a lot of sewing to do and a deadline to meet so she would feel guilty going out when she shouldn't be procrastinating. I understand. I try to put my work first too. The prob is she always has other plans when I try to reach out. She is hard to talk to as well. I really don't think she dislikes me but it makes having friends hard when they are always busy.

My other friend that I will see tomorrow is always fun. I hope I can think of plenty to talk about. I have learned that it is good to ask introverts questions to get them to talk so they don't feel left out, and then listen. I miss some of my other friends. They rarely invite me to do anything. It's just hard to maintain friendships after many years. People naturally drift apart. I honestly am so absorbed in work and personal and family stuff, I forget about my friends. I feel like I should still get invited to hang out even after not talking to someone for a long time.

At least my friend tomorrow is that way with me. We always stay friends even tho I don't live nearby and only visit a few times a year.

I hope to learn more things soon about myself and making friends. I used to have more and I saw them frequently so that I could get out of the house. Then when I started dating my ex I wasn't really allowed to have friends or anyone over. He played my introversion against me and I feel like there is still a wedge between my friends and family because of him. They didn't see me drifting away as his fault but mine.

My current fiance encourages me to make friends and see them so I plan to mend some of these friend issues I've been having.