I feel your pain. After just over 9 months of something I can't believe I was part of - an "online relationship" of sorts... no, we weren't together, but often talked about how we had everything except being together as I'm on the east coast and she's on the west coast. We met on DS on the day I joined and immediately started talking and had 5 months of talking nearly all day and all night in some method - AIM, video chats, text messages, phone calls. She was, and is the most amazing woman I've ever come to know and if not for how amazing she was, I'd never admit to having been a part of something such as that kind of relationship dynamic. We remarked often how we were "everything and more" to each other and given the fact that we couldn't sit on the couch and watch a movie (though we did watch movies together, from afar), all we had was talking - and it was as if in those first 5 months, considering we didn't have other things to fill our time we spent together, it felt as though the way that we got to know each other was far beyond the amount of time that had passed. Come to think of it, I'm not sure I came close to sharing as much of myself with someone I had been with for 3 years as I did this person. We hit some turbulent times - text messaging can be brutal when it comes to misunderstandings. But we got through them, always for the better & stronger... and then we hit some turbulent times that slowly spiraled and today was the proverbial nail in the coffin, throwing in of the towel, the going of separate ways. Truthfully, I feel like I lost a part of my heart and soul today and it crushes me. I feel your pain, I've never loved like I have this person.. which while it's what I feel strikes me as odd considering we had never met... but the heart, the soul, the mind... all the memories of the good times we shared, quite frankly the most incredible connection I've ever felt... there's no doubt that it's the most real love I've ever felt. There never has been any joy that I've experienced like those with her and there's no pain I've felt that cuts so deeply like hurting over her. I feel your pain, I feel more alone than perhaps I've ever felt... and it is exceptionally hard to bear.

I'm with you and I hope that you find some peace & happiness...

Sorry you're feeling so alone.

As long as I have something to look forward to, I'm content. This past winter was pretty bad. Completely dark at 5 P M - that's really early for night.

I know how you feel, I am alone too, It is hard to bear. I don't have
any answers on how to make it better, but if you want to talk you
can message me anytime. Take care - Big Hugs

I am sorry you feel so alone. I am very lonely too and have had a painful life. I am here for you if you would like to talk.
Hugs

i feel the same way. Every night as i lay in bed and the same four walls close in on me. I clutch a pillow and wish someone was there beside me. I wish someone anyone out there genuinely cared for me. It feels like ive no place in this world. I dont fit in anywhere with anyone. I go to work to come home to pay the bills. To go back to work to come home to pay the bills. Just feels pointless. But i know why i dont have friends. Because at my age alll everyone does is party. At some point you have to wonder what youre celebrating.

I'm alone also. Dealing with isues.
HeyHow many of us lone people would it take to have a BBQ?

I dissagree, (sorry) I hate to be alone, sometimes its not easy to stay that way the people I seperated my self from really want their door mat back. (me)
And its going to be herder to not be alone any more because those that I trusted the most kicked me the hardest.