I have a long distance boyfriend who lives two hours away but we both work and I also have classes so we rarely find the time to see each other. We do love each other and we trust each other whole heartedly but because of my depression bouts, the voices in my head tend to make me think, " am I being selfish for keeping him to myself when I dont even get to see him? sometimes not for months?" It hurts so much at times because I also live far from my friends. Having no one to talk to or even text just fuels the voices, making them louder over my common sence and makes me feel worthless. Lately all I've wanted is to hold him, to bother him at work just to hear his voice on the phone. I want to text him always through out the day but I have to hold myself back. I feel as though I am being needy for attention and I have been trying my best to keep it under control.

How can I get rid of this feeling of lonliness? Even when I distract myself with movies, games, painting or exercise the thoughts just rush right back and make me think, " should I text him right now and tell him I'm thinking of him? Should I leave a voicemail? Is he thinking about me? Am I turning into a stalker? what is wrong with me???"