So as you know I do help when I can but sometimes, I need help too. I will probably leave out a few details just for anonymity sake of everyone. So as the year 2010 wound down I had found someone I really liked to talk to.... and i waited patiently of course until the time was write of which she did indeed contact me on the day I was moving back to college... Which it really did make my day... because that's how much I wanted to get to know her.... so i talked to her the first couple of days. and It kind of went no where...the reason being I'm guessing is because I didn't ask any questions due to the fact I didn't want to be personal, just as friends. Well... a few days after she stopped talking to me... and i feel kind of lost because I know she has a busy life... but I want to clarify myself and seem to get no feed back in which to do so.... so what would it matter.. only because I rambled one night i think and I'm sure I scared her off. Which completely saddens me because I really really did like everything that I knew about her already. But since we haven't talked. and I'd like to think she is busy with her life... but at the same time i think she just doesn't want to talk to me.

2nd part of my problem...
There was a girl i met a month before and was friends with who knew all my problems.... basically and she too was a lesbian...Well one night... things started to take a turn toward something more... in the 8 days we have been "talking" she has made me almost completely happy she has made me smile, cry, and think in ways i have never thought before and I can honestly say when I tell her I love her (yes we have gotten that far in that amount of time) I do love her. But while she is this amazing girl who thinks everything of me... she thinks im beautiful and romantic and her everything... I feel that she has fallen very hard.... I too have fallen but in a way not as hard my biggest reserve is she lives in florida and I live in North carolina.. and in our circumstances it is hard to try to force either of us to go there... i thought about going this summer.... but really things are not working the way i need them too in order for me to go....and the other reserve is that I really like this other girl..... this other girl that had captured my mind first... and i have talked to the one i'm with now about all these things and she said she would gladly step aside if the other girl came back into my life because she wanted me to be happy.... the thing is... she has REALLY fallen hard maybe even moved a little fast with some things... and i feel i can't give my heart t her completely until i know... that this other girl... will not come back into my life or doesn't want to talk to me... i'm so reserved... and I know that.... the other girl is closer right now.... and would make meeting easier....As well as the girl that I am talking to we don't say we are official... we are basically friends... without benefits we just talk and "kiss" so to speak.... cause it is long distance... but I know me... I still look for other people that are closer... and I shouldn't be this girl I do love her.... it's not just lust because we haven't even done anything of the sort... but at the same time... I don't know how to get other people out of my head especially the first girl.... Can anyone help me please??