he replys with "It's not my fault I feel like this because I am not well" MOCKING YOU! ahh thats not good.

just tell him you dont like him saying that.

haha no its me who replies with that when he complains that i throw stuff in his face. does your partner tell you not to blame it on ur illness?

he doesn't quite say it in that manner, but i know that's what he is getting at. He tells me if i'm feeling these things that i should just get over it...i know he cannot possibly understand what exactly it is i am going through. I feel very bad that he has to go through this crap too, because of me. *sigh* He has told me that I have had a more f*cked up life than him, so why am I not stronger for it? And I really don't know why...
i'm sorry that this happens to you too

yea i doubt they could ever know what we go through and i know what u mean about feeling guilty.
sometimes i get the impression he doesnt believe me :(

i understand what you mean. It seems like he thinks it is all a cop out. That I go to this place instead of dealing....which in a way is true. But I don't have control over it, which he probably thinks I do....so frustrating

oh wait i get ya!

unless ur a jealous person..i dont think you could understand..to be honest i dont know how you couldnt be jealous.

bleh idno.

So we were talking about my feelings and right now my depression is flared up, that plus my anxieties is worse for me.....so he is going yea i understand and i am like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO you don't understand don't say you do....

maybe its just me and i want him to be understanding yet when he says "i understand" i know he doesn't how could he he doesn't have this burden weighing heavily on him.

Maybe if he read up on some fucking books regarding the conditions i have then maybe he would understand, but he is too damn lazy to do that.

If it makes you feel better Manda,. Today I had a breakdown and my boyfriend got pissed that I was crying and said he was going to leave and told me to "fucking stop crying".

No hunni it doesn't make me feel better that you are hurting, but it does make me feel less alone to know I am not suffering alone. Sometimes I think that no one can be as fucked up in the head as I am.

Your bf is so insensitive saying that to you, in some ways my hubby being 3000 miles away is a good thing cose I'd smack him for halk of the insensitive things he says to me.

My boyfriend is trying to read books on bipolar (which I am, among many other issues..) so I know that he tries to understand, but just doesn't seem to quite get it.

On the weekend, I tried explaining to him that I had all these crazy thoughts going on in my head, and that I felt like I was going nuts. His response? A shrug of the shoulders and "so stop thinking them". If it was that easy, I wouldn't be in this predicament!! None of us would!!

What's worse, is that over time I begin beleiving that it IS my fault, and why can't I just think something else?? Sometimes I even think blaming it on bipolar is a copout.

It's hard to make someone understand how you are feeling when you, yourself, don't even understand it. I don't understand why I get so low, or even how to come out of it, so I don't blame him for not getting it..

IK1980...you write everything i want to say..on every post i read of urs.

i wish my man would google some shit about me.
so maybe he can understand.

i wish i could show him my DS posts.

Ha...mine actually logged into my account and read some stuff. he really does try and be understanding though. I can't complain, he's a great guy; just wish I was normal!! lol