I'm grasping at straws trying to find a way to save my marraige. I am constantly finding reasons to believe that my wife is cheating on me in some way or form...or at the very least, hiding a relationshipo from me that she feels I would not approve of. I've been on meds for anxiety and depression for years, and have had jealousy issues every since I was in my young teens. I definitely have low self esteem, probably due to experiences growing up and how I was raised, but knowing this doesn't seem to help. I have tried one-on-one therapy, marraige counseling, I've even started meditating, but things are going downhill fast. Last night, I was sure I tasted alcohol on her breath when I kissed her after she came home. She denied it saying she had only been drinking gren tea and chewing on Juicyfruit gum. Of course I didn't believe her and thought she probably went to a happy hour with another man. Things spiraled downward from there, and we came to the conclusion that this marraige might not have a chance. We've been together for 15 years, I do love her, we have kids and a house, and I don't want my life as I know it to end, but I just don't know how to stop the negative thoughts, paranoia and jealousy. If anyone has any advice, encouragement or a simiar story, I'd love to hear from you.