I have been searching the internet for information and ideas about how to battle and eventually get past this insomnia I've been struggling with for over a month now.
It started the night before I was due to started working a new job - not really a "new" job, but a transition. I had a weird breathing feeling like I couldn't breathe right, and had the thought "what if I die in my sleep?" and it set off a panic attack. I ended up taking lorazepam (an old prescription left over from an ER visit) several days in a row, and going to my PCP. In that first week, I got put back on beta blockers (metoprolol) that I was on briefly before, and sertraline (zoloft). The next week, because everything was still horrible, he prescribed Trazodone. I never took it every day, I tried to only take it when I really needed it, which was generally the day after I was up all night (which has happened several times). Since that all started, I have gone to see a naturopath, started hypnosis sessions, am seeing my therapist (I was in therapy before this started) and finally switched PCPS because my dr was frustrated with me that I thought the sertraline was making it worse, and I got the feeling he was tired of me just not getting over this with his pill solutions. The following are all things I have tried:
Acupuncture (up to 2x a week)
Trazdone, Unisom (both kinds), 5 different kinds of melatonin, several herbal things with valerian, GABA, other stuff, something called cortisol manager that my naturpath prescribed, right now drinking Kava tea
This watch we got called dream time that supposedly stimulates acupuncture points
I only drink caffeine in the morning. I exercise several times a week, and not too close to bed (I'm a runner). I also try to go to yoga when I can.
This is absolutely DESTROYING me. Even when I get sleep, it's very broken, I wake up 2-5x a night, sometimes it's a quick wake up and i go right back to sleep, sometimes I'm up for awhile. I cannot continue this way. I am getting bad brain fog, forgetting things, and feel like I'm not myself anymore. I never had this problem before. I could fall right asleep and would sleep like a rock for 7-9 hours, and always wake up to my alarm. I would even sleep through night sweats! It was crazy. Now it is the opposite.
I had a blood panel to test hormones. I also did cortisol and neurotransmitter testing. I am doing everything I can.
I know sleep restriction therapy is supposed to work, but I'm afraid to try it, afraid it will make everything worse and I won't be able to work or crash my car because I won't sleep at all.
I'm also afraid I have that sporadic fatal insomnia thing. Right now it is 1:52am. I tried going to bed early, did the watch thing, took an herbal thing, listening to hypnosis. Still awake, listened to no less than 3 relaxing videos on youtube. At some point I drifted off but woke right back up and here I am. My husband is nice enough to stay up with me because it's a weekend and he's watching a show. I was supposed to meet a friend to run in the morning but I'm going to cancel because just in case I fall asleep, I don't want to waste it :(
This is awful. It has gotten to the point where I'm borderline suicidal. I would NEVER do that, believe me, and I'm not in any danger of this, but I have thoughts that maybe it would be easier if I were gone because the suffering is just so bad. When I get a decent amount of sleep, this feeling goes away. My PCP blamed everything on anxiety, and YES, I am an anxious person, but I am NOT anxious about anything EXCEPT this. And when I sleep, I feel better! I'm trying to accept this is my existence now and I can't change it, and that it won't last forever, but I feel like I'm going to ruin my professional and personal life. UGH! I know you all can relate. Thanks for reading.
Hi guyssorry I’ve been so silent here... once again I’ve seemed to lost my words ...Just trying to breathe Sending hopes for peace to who ever may be reading this rite now
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