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I feel fed up and like a freak

kara2012
kara2012
I am so fed up with not being able to feel tired naturally. I seem to have lost the abilty to get tired naturally. I have to be drugged inorder to feel the least bit tired. I disagree that everybody who is lucky enough to sleep well has good sleep habits when everyone I know who sleeps well has horrible sleep habits. I really never do feel tired naturally and I am not imagining it. I never yawn. I also don't think that anything like sleep hygine,CBT or sleep restriction could help me when I'm never tired. It makes no sense to lay down when I'm never tired. I would just be waiting for the 20 minutes or so to be up so I could get back up. I have been told to not worry about this as much and perhaps then I will regain the ability to feel tired again. I do obsess about this obviously because I repeat myself. I don't know how to even begin to convince myself that I don't care that I am never tired, I don't care if I sleep or not and that I don't care if the medicine "works" or not, when I do care about all of those things. I do worry constantly that the pills will stop "working" because they can and do stop "working", unfortunately,that I will be wide awake and start seeing things. I've also been told to take a supplement that can build ATP and the ATP will then become adenosine. Does the ATP always become adenosine eventually Galvortron or can it just stay ATP? I get so angry that I never feel tired naturally and I get angry with myself especially when I should be tired, such as when I have stayed up allnight. I also feel abnormal because "normal" people, in my opinion, get tired and need to sleep. I also feel resentful towards those, such as my Mom, who complain of chronic fatigue, when I would give anything to feel tired naturally again.I know that I'm repeating myself, but I am totally fed up. I probably could stay up and never crash. I probably wouldn't have goten much sleep for over the past year had I not taken anything. I really do feel like a wide awake freak. I am worried that I will never regain the ability to get tired and I don't want to live the rest of my life like this.
deleted_user
deleted_user
in a way kara you are lucky to have found a med that works. i can't tolerate seroquel nor many other meds. your problem sounds exactly the same as mine - I can only describe it as torture.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I can't tolerate medications either. Yes it is torture... No sleep going on 7 days... Don't know what to do... Want this to be over with. Want to feel tired want to sleep I don't enjoy anything in life I am miserable... I bought some tart cherry juice and going to try that and some 5HTP
deleted_user
deleted_user
I also don't drink caffine anymore I am wired all the time it sucks I want to be normal again...
kara2012
kara2012
My laptop got infected with viruses so I am not able to get on here very often:( I was so mad when my laptop got messed up that I took Seroquel and went to bed late on Saturday morning. I got up yesterday morning. I drank caffeine yesterday. I slept a little this morning because I dreamed. I'm probably better off not knowing how little I slept, but some sleep is better than none. Of course I'm not even tired. I went my laptop to get fixed so I can get on here again.
Tez62
Tez62
Kara, it's always tempting to try to work out how much sleep we get but I think your right it's probably best not to know unless you are keeping a sleep schedule to track your times for a Dr's appointment.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Kara,

I'm starting to think that you're addicted to seroquel. I know that my doctor told me seroquel is not addicting (although I only experimented with it), someone on here said it is. I did a little research and found that it is addicting.

Addicting means, without the drug, you cannot sleep.

The fact that you sleep with the drug and do not without the drug, sounds like you are addicted.

I think it's time to get professional help.
kara2012
kara2012
I have not had a good week. My laptop got infected with viruses and is now been at the repair shop for several days. I got in a fight with my mom yesterday and took the pills, but they didn't seem to "work" for a long time. I basically was just laying there all afternoon wide awake. The most I did, if I even did, was "sleep" off and on all aftertoon. I did" sleep" last night even though I didn't feel tired. I'm really worried that the pills have stopped"working" just like I'm always worried that they will stop "working". I don't know what I will do if they have stopped "working" because without them I'll be wide awake all the time. I also had a newly burnt CD just disappear and I don't know where it could possibly be. I can't even reburn the CD until I get my laptop back. I will give ribbose and the other supplements a try hopefully soon and I hope they work because I don't know what to do if they don't "work".
deleted_user
deleted_user
Kara. Did you ever talk to your doctor to see if the medicine is working so good that its not letting your body feel tired on its own? You can sleep on your own so maybe if you slowly lower your dose you will feel sleepy.
kara2012
kara2012
I am really worried about tonight. I am worried that the Seroquel has stopped "working" because I took it the other day, was laying wide awake for hours and didn't feel anything. I finally "slept" that night even though I wasn't tired of course. The lower doses of Seroquel were not at all sedating for me. Even as a side effect I was never tired. I don't even know how I managed to "sleep" on the lower dosages, being that they were not at all sedating. Trazadone, which I used to take alone before taking Seroquel and stopped working by itself, also never made me drowsy as a side effect so I don't even know how I ever slept on Trazadone.
Tez62
Tez62
Kara, your problem is you are still 'over thinking' your problem, we have been telling you this throgh the whole post. If you don't let go it doesn't matter what meds you take or how many it will continue on and you will just keep taking more and more. The meds aren't the solution here, they are just adding to the problem. You really need to do CBT and so way of calming yoursel like meditation and or yoga and let the thought of sleep go and get back to a 'normal' life otherwise you will still be saying the same thing on this same post in a year or two or three time, try to take some of our advice. Also there is no short term fix whichever way you go, it is going to be a long journey so you have to be prepared for that. You have tried meds which are the quick fix, they haven't worked so now you have to try something else.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Idk tez... It sure sounds like an addiction. She may need to discuss with her prescribing doctor to safely get off of it.

It could be dangerous to try and stop it on your own.
Tez62
Tez62
galvatron, sorry I probably didn't explain it properly, Kara may need to stay on them or if she is going off he needs to speak to her Dr and taper off slowly. I meant she may need to approach it from a multiple of ways and not rely on just one method.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I see. Phew... I just wanted to make sure Kara doesn't just stop taking it.

I still remember when they told me I had to taper off of benzo or I could die but I stopped cold turkey anyway since I wasn't on it very long but the effects and withdrawal were absolutely horendous. It was the only and also worse drug addiction I ever overcame.