Kara2012, you need to accept it and move on, worrying about worry. getting anxious about anxiety just feeds off it's self and does make things worse. I know it's a lot easier to say than do but just try it. Do you do things like yoga, meditation, exercising at the gym?

Thank you for replying. You are right that I need to try to not worry about this as much. I agree that it's easier said than done. What kind of things should I do to try to not think about it as much? I could do things I like to do to try to keep my mind off of this situation, such as listen to music, get on the internet,etc. I already do these things, though, and I still find myself obcessing about this situation. I just hope that this goes away eventually. I hope it goes away sooner versus later.

Kara, distraction only works while you are being distracted, it won't work in the middle of the night because you go back to thinking about it. I think you have said you don't have insurance, I was going to suggest you either try CBT or a Mindfulness course. CBT tries to changes the way you think about things and Mindfulness is accepting and doing things like breathing, meditation, yoga etc. You may want to look into it online. I'm not saying either will cure you but hopefully it will help. I do both and are a lot more relaxed. I still have the problems I had in the past but can handle them better. I'm no Dr but you sound a bit like I was, I was stressed all time, couldn't sleep and slowly got worse. Sleep is the time when you release stress and if you don't get enough your stress just keeps building up and up and up, it needs a release. I think your probably running on adrenaline now which isn't good in the long run. Try and relax a bit more, take some breathes in the short term.

Kara,

I'm sorry to hear that insomnia is hitting you hard. First of all, I am going to tell you that YOU WILL get that natural tired feeling again. I promise you.

I too, lost that tired feeling for a very long time. (much longer than you, but I never gave up)

Do you remember how you lost it? I do. I was taking some medication and then one day... I just wasn't tired anymore. What I didn't realize was, I was very tired, exhausted in fact but I just couldn't tell.

I had no idea that I had run so low on Adenosine that there wasn't enough to make me tired. (Adenosine is the stuff in your brain that makes you tired. You drink coffee and the caffeine in coffee blocks Adenosine, so that you do not feel tired. Get it?)

So, then, you may be thinking... well, how the heck does anyone increase their Adenosine levels? This part is amazing and you may or may not believe me but heck... do your own research anyway.

You get Adenosine from the break down of Adenosine Triphosphate. So, where the heck did Adenosine Triphosphate come from? Adenosine Triphosphate comes from Adenosine when you are sleeping. Yes.... during the wake cycle, you burn ATP and ATP turns in to ADP (Adenosine diphosphate) and then it further breaks down to just Adenosine (accumulate enough Adenosine and you start to get tired and sleepy; then you go to sleep). During the sleep cycle, your system converts Adenosine back to ADP and back to ATP (when you don't have enough Adenosine left, you wake up. It's called the ATP cycle.

So, couldn't you just go exercise until you get tired? Not according to you. In your OP, you said that it seems impossible for "me to tire myself out anymore." If this is true, then, I am guessing that.... you are low on the sugar Ribose and probably other supporting vitamins. Ribose is what fuels ATP. When you are really low in Ribose/ATP, your system can switch its power source. That way, you are now burning something else besides ATP to keep your system going.

What would I do?
I would get off of all drugs safely, with the help of my doctor.
I would take a small amount of Ribose (300mg to 500mg) in the morning with a good quality vitamin b-complex and a 500mg Glutamin (another type of sugar, Glutamin is to help you recover). Then, wait.

In my experience, I found that you do not need to do this everyday. I found that if I did do this everyday, it would actually keep me awake. You see, the idea here is to have a good balance. too low and you have insomnia. too much and you have insomnia.

I am going to leave you with 2 youtube videos. One video shows Adenosine and the effects on your brain. One video shows the ATP cycle.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JP7EQ6e5d1c
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhuqXwvFv2E

Thank you for replying. I will give these supplements a try, but don't have any money. I sure hope they work, but am worried that they won't work. How long did you not feel tired for? Were the supplements what finally made you get tired again? I hope they work for me the way they worked for you. I'm totally fed up with never feeling tired.