Seroquel is sometimes prescribed for bi-polar disorder, if that's what you're driving at.

Your doctor and counselor, and/or any other healthcare professionals you are working with who have examined you and know your medical history, these should be the best persons to consult with these questions Kara.

I would suggest asking them what specifically is their diagnoses, so you have a better handle on your situation. Then I would also suggest working with them on treating the root causes that are underlying your issues, so that yes you can eventually wean yourself off of medications.

And sleep better. Yes, it can be done.

So stay with it, there is help for you. Even if it's not perfect (and who has that?), it can be better. Maybe go for just a little better today.

Sending positive thoughts your way.

She, the so called doctor, kept on insisting that I wasn't manic or even hypo manic for that matter when I would ask about it. I think I really might be hypomanic in addition to my other diagnoses?, which I know what they are because I'm so wide awake. I just don't see how anxiety can give a person so much energy and how anxiety can make a person feel so wide awake. I'm really confused about that. I have been hypo manic, if in fact I am, for a really long time now and I don't know if a person can stay hypo manic for such a long time. A severe manic is probably just as wide awake as me, but is not bothered by their endless energy like I am. I'm obviously very depressed and worried about all of my energy. I obviously don't think being wide awake is a good and positive thing. I look at all this endless energy as very negative, bothersome and abnormal. I don't understand why this couldn't have happened to someone who wouldn't have care, as I've stated, instead of to me who loved to lay around before all of this. It is not fun to lay around when you feel wide awake. As I've said I'm starting to feel depressed because I see others who were like me back to " normal", while I seem to stay like this. I'm worried, as I've stated numerous times, that I'm stuck like this. I don't want to live the rest of my life like this and I feel I might get really suicidal if I don't eventually get back to "normal". I don't see myself ever being med free like this. I will never be med free unless I'm back to "normal" and I will always be miserable like this. The only way I will overcome this is if I'm back to "normal". I think I fear things getting worse and I become very tolerant to the effects of my meds. I just don't see how I can truly move on with and enjoy my life, even if everything else was better, like this. I just don't feel normal. I stayed up al night t last night. I didn't even lay down and of course I am wide awake. I don't expect to get the least bit tired tonight before the meds. It's hard not to worry and obsess over being so wide awake like I am when I shouldn't be. I like staying up late, as I've already stated, but worry about being so wide awake. I like being up late online, watching T.V. if I am going to stay up al night or reading if I am going to try to relax, as best I can even though it's hard to relax when you're wide awake, when I take the meds.
I like to listen to music also but that doesn't completely keep me from worrying.
I might be the least worried, perhaps, when I plan on staying up al night, which I do several times a week. I might worry the most, perhaps, on nights like tonight after I have stayed up al night and I of course feel wide awake.

Another approach that might help you kara, along with the other treatment you are getting, might be to redefine "normal" on your terms, not someone else's. After all, you are a unique person, as we all are.

What works for someone else's "normal" may not necessarily be what's best for you. Maybe try going for what works best for Kara as the new normal.

Another thought: what are you doing with all your "excess" energy?

Do you have a hobby? Sewing, reading, writing, knitting, whatever that relaxes you and you find constructive? Maybe by putting your "excess" energy into something you enjoy, it will help you let go a little of your fear and anxiety, which, after all, are only feeding your insomnia.

Maybe by doing that you will begin to recognize better the signs of what drowsy feels like, and then know it's time to head to bed.

So do you think I am actually drowsy sometimes I just can't feel it for some reason Sleeptraining? Why do you believe that I am actually drowsy sometimes but I can't feel it for some reason? What do you think causes me to not be able to not feel when I'm drowsy, although you can't say for sure, even though I am. How do you recommend I should do to be able to recognize the tired feeling again? Do you think, al though you can't say for sure, that I will be able to eventually feel the tired feeling again?

Kara, at the risk of stating the obvious, drowsy is what you feel right before you fall asleep.

Drowsy is different than tired. Tired also describes the feeling after strenuous physical exertion but not necessarily sleepiness.

Unless you're narcoleptic (and this is not what you are describing), there is a transition between wakefulness and sleep. You don't just go from wide awake to fast asleep.

Sleep scientists refer to this transition as stages of sleep. Drowsy is stage one sleep. It is not true sleep, but is necessary before descending into the deeper stages of sleep.

You are no doubt experiencing stage one sleep now, but apparently are not recognizing it. When you feel like you can't keep your eyes open any longer, when your chin begins to sag down on your neck, when you can no longer concentrate, when you begin to feel a bit of a chill, these are all signs of stage one sleep.

When you recognize these signs, it is your body's way of telling you it's time for sleep.

My eyes are never hard to keep open and I don't really ever yawn. If I am actually drowsy I'm not able to feel or recognize it for some reason anymore. So you do think that sometimes I am feeling drowsy I just can't recognize it for some reason because I experience the first stage of sleep Sleeptraining? What do you think, although you don't know for sure, is making it that I don't recognize and can't feel that I am drowsy? What should I do to attempt to be able to feel when I'm drowsy again? I have gotten a chill at night before sometimes, but I don't think it is because I'm actually drowsy but don't feel it. I get cold at night sometimes when it's cold outside and I bundle up.

I feel often times that I can't stand feeling so wide awake anymore. How come you think I am actually feeling drowsy when I should, but I just don't recognize it for some reason Sleeptraining? What do you think causes me not to be able to feel and recognize the drowsy feeling, even though you can't say for sure what causes this Sleeptraining and what do you think I should try to do to attempt to be able to feel drowsy when I should again?
I laid down early the other morning even though I wasn't tired and I didn't sleep. I also felt maybe a tiny bit tired early the next morning but I didn't fall asleep, unfortunately, before I took the meds. However, early another morning recently I did lay down when I wasn't that tired at all f course and I did actually sleep. I also slept a little the other morning before I took the meds even though it had been several days since I had took the meds and I was in withdrawal. So it does mean that I am actually tired when I do sleep even though I don't feel it for some reason. Does it mean that I 'm actually, even though I don't feel it, not tired when I can't sleep?

Kara, the best person to ask all these questions is your doctor, therapist, counselor, etc ... meaning a a healthcare professional who has examined you and knows your medical history.

All I'm saying is before you sleep you are very likely in a drowsy (not necessarily tired) state. That's what drowsy feels like for you. You have in fact described this.

Do you have a consistent sleep-wake schedule?