Insomnia Support Group
Insomnia is a symptom, rather than a disease, and is characterized by inadequate quantity or quality of sleep. People with insomnia complain of difficulty falling or staying asleep, which results in significant impairment of daytime functioning. Insomnia is categorized as transient (shorter than one week), short-term (one to three weeks) or chronic (longer than three...
I was doing better, although I still felt wide awake. I thought I was going to have a job I loved, as I stated on a previous post. Well I didn't end up having that job and I'm so upset. :(
I was volunteering at the school that my mom taught at for power hour after school, which is run by the boys and girls club. I had been told I had been hired. I had even signed the usual papers, taken a drug test, which I passed, of course and finally gotten my background check completed. They told me they couldn't get a hold of me recently, even though I never had a message on the machine from them and they lost something. I am so upset.:(
I really thought I was going to have that job, which I loved. I feel like there is no other job like that. I've applied for 2 years in a row for the after school programs in the schools, which I would love and haven't gotten hired. I really don't see who will ever want to hire me. I haven't had a job for a long time and it looks like it's even been longer than it has been. I worked for a little while about 2 years ago and it didn't work out. I was let go ,unfortunately so I don't even write that down. Nobody was interested in hiring me when all this wide awake shit started and it looked like I was still working then. Who the hell is going to want to hire me now and where? I feel like there is no place I even want to go anymore left. I will never forgive myself if they didn't hire me because it took since a long time getting my background check completed. This is obviously a distraction to me obsessing over being wide awake, but it's not a good distraction obviously. I just don't know what to do. I don't think anyone or anything can help me. I'm fed up with having no money and being wide awake. Really who would want to hire my wide awake, broke ass? I'm too chicken to do anything suicide wise, but I'm miserable.
I was volunteering at the school that my mom taught at for power hour after school, which is run by the boys and girls club. I had been told I had been hired. I had even signed the usual papers, taken a drug test, which I passed, of course and finally gotten my background check completed. They told me they couldn't get a hold of me recently, even though I never had a message on the machine from them and they lost something. I am so upset.:(
I really thought I was going to have that job, which I loved. I feel like there is no other job like that. I've applied for 2 years in a row for the after school programs in the schools, which I would love and haven't gotten hired. I really don't see who will ever want to hire me. I haven't had a job for a long time and it looks like it's even been longer than it has been. I worked for a little while about 2 years ago and it didn't work out. I was let go ,unfortunately so I don't even write that down. Nobody was interested in hiring me when all this wide awake shit started and it looked like I was still working then. Who the hell is going to want to hire me now and where? I feel like there is no place I even want to go anymore left. I will never forgive myself if they didn't hire me because it took since a long time getting my background check completed. This is obviously a distraction to me obsessing over being wide awake, but it's not a good distraction obviously. I just don't know what to do. I don't think anyone or anything can help me. I'm fed up with having no money and being wide awake. Really who would want to hire my wide awake, broke ass? I'm too chicken to do anything suicide wise, but I'm miserable.
But, on the other hand, it's always darkest just before the dawn.
You are so right about no one being able to help you. That's because at the most basic level only you can help yourself. When you are determined to help yourself, you will find much support and help from others to help yourself. This support group is evidence of that.
I would encourage you to look into job and career building ideas. There's a ton of info on that. Start with your local library. They probably have a whole row or two of good books just on that. Maybe pick out one book you like, and put that plan to work.
I speak from experience on that, because at one point in my life when I was not satisfied with my career, that's exactly what I did. I followed that book's plan to a tee. And guess what. For me, it worked out pretty well. It can for you too.
For now, even if you're unemployed, you can make finding employment your full time job. I am confident you will be successful if you are determined and persistent.
Thanks for this update. Please continue to keep us posted.
Although I do not know much about your background, perhaps attending a local community college can help spark some interests regarding possible career paths. Usually counselors are eager and willing to work with people to create a personalized road to success.
Also, don't forget about the current movement in higher education that is free and open like http://coursera.org/. You are never too old to learn!