i can't believe that lying cheating SOB had the nerve to call me ! i was half asleep and didn't look on the caller id or i wouldn't have picked it up- so i hear his voice and i'll admit my heart started beating faster and my pulse was racing and i felt myself blushing.... but at the same time i felt i had been holding in a breath and i could let it out- so once i got over that - he is whispering and i was like where are u? he says i'm outside but she can hear if she wakes up and i was like u bastard! He went on to say that the reason he didn't file for divorce yet is because he has to get her to drop the charges on him - which she says she will do on may 15th when he goes to court-and he says my plan was to make u think i wanted to get rid of you and play along with her til i get money saved and move... and i'm not an idiot- i was not born in the dark and it certainly was not lastnight! so i was thinking to myself ok so ur plan was to tell me i'm ugly- i'm worthless and u love her and not me! what a load of shit ! that he was expecting me to accept- all i said was whatever Matt.... and he said I Love you and i think he actually expected me to say it back- i was like what an idiot! he tells me he wants to move here to be with me and i said well i'm going to bed now bye - and he says you'll see and i hung up on him.... if he calls again my new man will be down here and i'll let him deal with it... i'm not dealin with that situation anymore... i love him but if i took him back i'd be a mistress forever and i'm not ok with that- i want ot be the one and only and with this new guy i feel i will be the one and only - since he is really single- i hate lying cheating men- they should all be castrated! this was my venting for the day.... i hope i did the right thing.......