Hi DS family....boy I sure do miss you guys. I hope everyone is doing well and progressing in better spirits with each passing day. I was wondering about something and I know I can bet my life that I'll get some sound advice and words of wisdom from you guys. You guys (those who know me and my story) know that my son's father is Hispanic (he's from Peru) and I have noticed that quite a few people who hadn't seen us in a while were really shocked that I had to let him go. And the first thing out of their mouths is, "That's surprising as MOST Hispanic men are about FAMILY. Well any who you guys know I run a small boutique at the flea-market and i get to see all kinds of walks of life. So yesterday I see this attractive Hispanic guy who comes through all the time and all the time he is with his 4 kids and his wife or girlfriend. He's kinda of a bulky guy...but still appealing to the eyes. Yet his girlfriend looks like SHANEA NEA (you know the hood-rat chick that MARTIN LAWRENCE plays on his show. She always looks a hot nasty mess. Yesterday she had on what I believe is the worst plastic wig that was ever created...she's black as night but the wig was blonde and she had on those fake lashes that if you stood within 15 feet of her would poke me in my eyes. Her clothes were dirty and dingy...she just looked a mess. But yet there he was...PROUDLY walking beside her and pushing the smallest of his children in her stroller. Then today I go into the bank and there is another Hispanic guy with his girlfriend and their baby...She wasn't a mess of a woman..but she could surely use some help. But again there her man was being a gentleman asking her to let him hold the baby while she went to stand in line. Oh I have more horror stories of the men I have seen...good-looking men...with trashy, raunchy....dirty looking females and it makes you wonder many things...such as..

1.) What is wrong with ME????!!!! I think I'm a fairly okay looking woman. I cook a minimum of 3 times a week. I keep an immaculate home although I have a 12 year old and an 11 month old running around on a daily...I drive a decent car (that's fully paid for), I dress extremely nice (or so I'm told on a daily by men and women who ask where I purchase my clothes...I'm a GOD-FEARING woman who attends church as often as time permits, I don't smoke, drink very rarely (if I go out...which I haven't done in a great minute...or when I have girls night which hasn't happened in months), I'm petite, although I am slowly but surely getting my sexy curves back that were deflated when I was stressed....so why is it that MY MAN CHOSE to cheat on me with a woman who anyone can CLEARLY see was beneath me? That too bothers me...she still lives downstairs..but is preparing to move by the end of this month. Her boyfriend who has a good job and is older than her 24 years...didn't leave her after finding out she's a classless whore. In fact he made sure to help get her a new Hyundia (because her old car had to AC..and she has 2 kids), she FINALLY got off her ghetto tail and got a J-O-B (which is at BEST-BUY), but at least the whore is working more than whats between her legs at this point. Also she has updated her FB profile and NOW states that she is looking for a man that likes to do what she likes and is drama free (IS THIS WHORE SERIOUS!!!?), that she KNOWS she looks good, and CAN YOU BELIEVE SHE HAS ACTUALLY POSTED HER CELLPHONE NUMBER FOR PROSPECTS...YET this 30 something year old man who isn't bad looking at all....IS STILL WITH HER...treating her like the lady she is NOT.....hell I cannot help but to wonder WTF is going on. Or should I just face the FACTS that I chose to deal with a BOY who wasn't mentally equipped to realize my worth and what I bought to the table....HELP ME OUT GUYS....so I can give my brains some rest.