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one door has closed. another has opened

gettingintune
gettingintune


I truly feel for the first time in almost 4 years, untethered by the past, untethered by resentment.

ive broken free from the event horizon of the sucking blackhole of the past 

 

I'm looking towards the future and living in the present and leaving the past behind where it belongs

 

my wife and I have decided to divorce. Papers have been filed and we are negotiating settlement w our lawyers.

 

for almost 4 years I've felt trapped in a room that only had 2 doors.

neither of the doors were the right choice for me

 

door one - stay married.   I didnt want to be married anymore

door two - divorce.  I didnt want to divorce as I believed it would harm my children

 

once I was finally able to make the decision from a place of peace and calm... the tether that held me, or more accurately, that I held onto , which connected me back to the past...I finally let it go.

 

I felt free

 

I felt the resentment drop away

 

the anger..... the hurt

 

I'm still working on forgiveness, but I know I have the capacity to make it there.

 

ive believe the gravity of the past trapped me

 

but in reality, my choice to not choose, trapped me.

 

I feel at peace

 

no longer stuck in stasis in the event horizon...Im now floating on a cloud

there are doors to the past...sometimes they crack open and I can hear the whirlpool of the abyss.

but now, I can simply walk over, and close the door, and continue on my path.

the allure of jumping back into the maelstrom has lifted.

 

perhaps that was one of my own addictions I have finally dropped.

 

peace

 

 
stayingpositive
stayingpositive
Amen brother. I am getting there too. Divorce will hopefully be wrapped up in a month. I’ve finally let go of trying and living on the false hope that he will do right by me and fight to rebuild all he has damaged. I’m tired of holding out hope only to get crushed at every turn. I’d rather be alone than with a self centered cheater.
gettingintune
gettingintune
Went to Amazing concert last night which ended w the song "Turn Turn Turn"

Saw guy #2 ( of wife's 8) there last night. He at one point was a friend of mine and played in a band I was in.

I was having fantasies of tripping him on the stairs in the venue and drowning him in the toilet in the basement along w a few throat punches

But then I thought
F*** that
That’s the past
I don’t live there anymore

And I’m listening to one of my all time favorite bands and musicians and music that has inspired me throughout my life

So be here now

And I asked my HP for help to do the next right thing

And I let that sh1t go

there was a few seconds when I actually just stopped in my tracks when he walked past me

Froze

And all these hateful thoughts started to come up

I said to myself

No!
Not today!
Not now!
Not anymore!
Especially not after this weekend !
I’ve no room or use for hate in my life

To ever thing, there is a season