Am I wrong To feel this way? I've been married twenty three years with kids. I never strayed from marriage in any way shape or form, even during tough times. Last year I found my husband flirting online with a coworker, he'd made a secret account that I accidentally happened to stumbled upon. We overcame it, so I thought; he claimed it wasn't what It looked like. We talked and both agreed on working in our marriage, fresh start, move to a different state. I thought we had worked most of our problems, but in the last two weeks I've been in hell, emotionally distraught. Feeling like my heart is going to stop any second. Abandoned. He'd been playing online, socially interacting, he claimed everything was friendly. But then again, on a very early morning I woke up restless and as I went to the kitchen I passed the family computer, which was still turned on, left running on the game site. First thing I see is an opened private chat room. His words professing his love for another woman. The words I read cut me deeply. I was stupidly shocked. I never really wanted to believe it was more than social flirting. HE still claimed it was not what I thought. I asked him for his phone, and found two months worth of texting and calls. Both married and knowingly carrying on an online affair, the words like daggers to my heart. Even comments on how he'd eluded me from finding out, as they planned their chat times. Now once again, after it all blew over in his face. We are still trying to work things out. But I'm hurt, disappointed, betrayed, and feel so alone. I have no trust in his words, and I See him in a very way. Duplicitous. I feel like a doormat, because I still love him, even though he's deceiving. I feel Stupid.