Wow. This is really deep. You need to get some help. You have to learn how to take care of yourself. You cannot take care of everyone else if you're not okay. How can they expect that you take care of everyone else?

It sounds like your husband is gone. If you haven't heard from him, then you can't depend on him anymore. Please go to your doctor and get advice for what to do about your depression. Go to the hospital if it gets worse.

That must have been traumatic for you to see your spouse with someone in YOUR bed. You are probably still in shock and unable to cope. As Oops said, please take care of yourself. You have been wounded deeply. See your pastor/priest. You are NOT alone. We are here. Tell US how you feel. Get it all out - the pain, the anger, the sadness. Hopefully the release of emotions and pain with someone you trust can be the difference.

Oh sweetie I am so sorry that you have to endure this pain but when you say you feel alone...you are not. Not only are we here to support you through this time but more importantly God is there with you...he is ALWAYS there even in your darkest hours and I would not have made it as far as I have without him. I would not have made it this far without DS! Hang in there kiddo IT DOES GET BETTER!

All you can do is feel the pain and grow stronger. You will become a stronger, tougher you. You will realize that you don't really need a man who would treat you like that. What kind of advice would you give your sister if she had this same trouble? You would probably tell her to let him go and never look back, right? You'd tell her that she deserved better.
You need to treat yourself with the same care that you give your family. You can't care for them properly, if you don't put yourself first.
Get some counseling if possible. If you have any activities that you have enjoyed in the past (Yoga, reading, volunteering), try to make time for yourself to do them now.
You only have one life to live. Live it well. That power never really comes from somebody else for most people. We have to make our own way, and our own happiness has to come from within.
Hes not worth it. You deserve better. Take good care of yourself!

Thank you for all of your advice. It sure makes me feel better to know I am not alone. All I want is him back. I am stupid but it hurts when someone you have relied on for so many years and spent every possible moment with, to just never see him again. It feels like he died and I was not prepared. In a way I feel like I am mourning.

I am so sorry, I agree with the others get some help. Why would you want him if he was f**king another woman in your home & on your bed? What did he say, what did she say? If he left when she did, it degraded you again in front of her. You don't need someone like that in your life. As you know theres enough hurt out there you don't need to be willing sitting there saying, hit me here I am !!

We know your pain, the people in this group have been very helpful to me and I'm sure you will find them helpful as well.
Definitely get help from a counselor, you will need it.

It sounds like your husband is not coming back, but even though that will take time to get over, you really need to concentrate on you.

Good luck, God Bless and keep in touch with the group...seriously.

Reil

that is a shame and you need to tak care of yourself