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DDay...One Year Later

Broken2271
Broken2271
It was one year ago today that the course of my life changed forever.

To say that it has been a difficult road, would be an understatement. It has been the most life changing experience of my life. I did not think that I would be able to survive it...BUT I HAVE! I am not the same woman I was prior to that day. My whole view of life in general has changed in the most prolific of ways. I no longer view life with blinders on. I am absolutely aware of everything now. I am stronger than I have ever been. I no longer allow people to define who I am. I no longer allow these events to control my everyday life. I take better care of my body, my soul, and my spirit. I am more in tune with myself. I know my value and my worth. I am in awe of who I am becoming.

Yes, my life forever changed that day. But I am taking what has been thrown at me and running with it. I will be okay...BECAUSE I HAVE TO BE! There are no other options. Sit down and let this destroy me? NOT A CHANCE! This has become the catalyst for who I am now and where I am going in life...and I welcome the changes. I am letting go of the past, and embracing my present, because (God Willing) my future is going to be amazing...

Hugs to all...
socrushed
socrushed
I love your post. I hope that I can get where you are! You are a surviver! Thanks for sharing. hugs!
deleted_user
deleted_user
What I see before me is a strong, confident, beautiful and spiritual person. You are looking at this from such a new point of view, a stronger point of view. Out of the devastation and rubble of this horrific event grew a beautiful flower. Your so right when you say "sit down and let this destroy me, not a chance". That is empowerment!! You should be so proud of yourself to come this far. Amazing!
I am nearing dday , and I was dreading it until this moment when I read this. You are giving me back some power and hope. This is how I want to be on dday. Not crumbled in a pile crying, but looking back on what I've learnt and who I have become.
You will never know how much this has helped me, so thank you for that.
3GuysMom
3GuysMom
Congratulations to you!!!!! It's so hard to come out on the other end of this with a positive feeling.
znzsmom
znzsmom
Amen to that! I feel the same as you. I did have my moments when the demons came and I questioned my worth, but my strength prevailed. I know I am a special person with so much to offer. This mess has actually made my H REALLY take notice and appreciate what he has. As a matter of fact, he told me that he thanks God daily for me.

Good can come from this in so many ways. You also pointed out something, we have a choice in how we deal with this. We can either lie down and become debilitated, which, for me, like you said, is simply not an option, or we can take what we have learned and let that motivate us to make changes for the better. I have chosen the latter.

My ultimate goal is to let go of hurts and resentments from the past, to stop worrying about the future and to embrace my present joy. I still have a ways to go, but I'm on my way. I'm not sure I would have been this aware of the importance of that goal had dday never happened. I wish the A never happened, but since it did, I choose to let the experience propell me forward. Thanks for sharing your strength with us!
Broken2271
Broken2271
Thanks everyone...

Alison03,
Trust me...it takes all the strength I have to stop the triggers from controlling how my day will go. I refuse to allow this to be the defining moment in my life. I rather look at it as a footnote. It takes so much out of you, BUT it does get better. I am taking something really bad and trying to find the good in it. It was hard at first because I was in a FOG. I realized one day, that I don't want to live this way anymore, because it wasn't my definition of living. I still have my bad days and I will continue to have those bad days...but I won't let them stop me from LIVING.
wackymacky
wackymacky
Hey Honey!!!
Write me let me know whats going on. Glad to hear you are in a good place!!! I am too!! But than again that is what friends are for!!

Fill me in..... I have so much to tell you.

Love,
Tina
Seekinganswers1
Seekinganswers1
You expressed my feeling 100%.. I couldn't have said it better.
My dday anniversary is April 4th and the first confrontation with H is April 16.
Crossroads64
Crossroads64
Rock On! I hope you know how inspiring it is for others who are still struggling, to read posts like yours and realize there's light at the end of the tunnel...and it can be even brighter than before. Regardless whether post-d-day the relationship ends, or heals (& you didn't say which it was for you? ), it's safe to say that it can be a catalyst for positive change. Some days the saying 'what doesn't kill us makes us stronger', is hard to believe. But in so many ways, it is true.
I know I had lost myself somewhere along the line, and that will NEVER happen again. Seeing you and others here, who have really embraced their own AWESOMENESS, is great inspiration to always move forward with that goal even on days that serve as painful reminders of what was. It is what WILL BE, that matters most now.
Hugs, CR64
deleted_user
deleted_user
good for you! great post.
deleted_user
deleted_user
You brought tears to my eyes. Thank you; that was inspiring and spilling over with hope for those of us who are still at the start of this journey. I can only hope to be where you are in my near future.
Blindsidedagain
Blindsidedagain
Thank you for your inspiring remarks.
You give hope to others here.
silla00
silla00
What a wonderful post Broken (sounds like it's time for a new screen name, yay!!) Thank you so much for sharing this. It is so very inspiring and means so much to me and obviously to many others here too. I'm far from being in the place that you are and really need to hear that the place you're in is possible (as difficult as that is for me to see right now). It is posts like this that live up to the promise of this website's name, Daily Strength. I definitely feel stronger from reading what you've shared and a lot more hopeful. I think what can often happen is that we spend a lot of time on these kinds of sites when we're still in a really difficult place and it can be easy to forget to get back on and share where we're at when we're feeling better, so it's great that you've done that. You're an inspiration! I look forward to joining you in that empowered, positive place one day soon. Please continue to keep us updated.
deleted_user
deleted_user
WOW. This was a very inspiring read. Thank you for sharing and a BIG THANK YOU for giving me hope that I will not only survive - but rather thrive! ;-)

Many, many hugs to you!
Broken2271
Broken2271
I wanted to thank everyone for the lovely responses to my post. It made me feel good to know that I could help others here. It is nice to know that we are not alone on this difficult journey, that there are others here that know what this is like for us everyday. This site has given me an insight into both perpectives and that has helped me in my ownjourney. We are all human, and we are all good people in our own ways...let's treat each other with dignity and kindness.

Thank you...
Broken2271
Broken2271
I know it may be weird to BUMP your own discussion, but I received alot of really positive feedback from my post. I know that a few of you have DDay anniversaries coming up, and I just wanted to let you guys know that I am thinking of you and hoping that you stay strong.

Hugs...