Hi everyone. I'm new here, and have mixed feelings; I'm glad to have found this site, yet I wish no one had to go through the ups and downs infertility brings. I used to think that ignorance is bliss. What's to think about, ya know? You get married, you enjoy some time alone together, you start talking about kids, you try, and bam! It happens. Ok, no, not necessarily. And then it becomes: Who cares if you're in your 30s, and you've been trying for what feels like forever. It'll happen; there's nothing wrong. Right? Nope. At least not for us. For almost all of our committed (and some single) friends, yes, but not us. For instance: In the past year that we've been waiting to see a specialist, (I'm from Canada, so we wait, but appointments are free. I'm not up to speed on how other countries do things), my brother and his girlfriend, (who is the same age as I am), got pregnant by surprise, (and he is a bea-u-tiful lil' fella!!), and my other nephew (yes, my sister is a wee bit older than me, with two grown kids), and his girlfriend had a big surprise pregnancy. She didn't know she was pregnant and gave birth in the bathroom. (Yet another sweet joy-baby). That's not counting the other friends and relatives driving the latest baby boom to a healthy level around us, (I can count 6 other couples off the top of my head). And we've been quiet and private, while almost everyone pokes and teases with the usual "when's it gonna be your turn" questions. The truth is, we don't know. And those questions make me want to ask them how their "plumbing" is holding out. But that would be rude, and I'm not there yet. DH wants to punch people, and if you knew him, you'd know the questions must really be bothering him. (He won't kill spiders for me... 'Makes him feel bad...) I have had bloodwork(s), HSG, and ultrasounds. My husband has had 2 analyses done, and we just got a call requesting he come in for another, topped off with hormone level bloodwork tests. This felt like it was the middle of the journey for us, seeing as how we'd been trying for a while, but it's now looking like it's really the beginning of a really frustrating journey. Today, I feel hopeless. Tomorrow, I may be pinning nursery inspiration pics because I've slept and feel hopeful again. And Thursday, the specialist will be delivering my latest test results, so who knows how I'll feel then. I marked this entry as venting, but maybe I'm just rambling because I'm scared, anxious and feeling a wee bit alone, with DH, obviously). Anyhow,thanks for letting me vent. And fingers crossed for good news for everyone waiting for it!
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