Thanks for sharing such a true post.

When I woke up at 4am this morning, I had the same feeling of sadness overwhelm me. Sometimes it comes out of nowhere and knocks me off my feet. I long for the day when we can leave the sadness and grief behind.

I agree with both of you about this sadness or grief that we can't seem to shake. I'll be kind of normal all day. But it always seems to be in the back of my mind like I've piled up normal stuff in front of it to hide it. But when I'm alone late at night because I work late and get home about midnight, I find everything on tv makes me think of it. And then I start all the questions about myself, the feeling sorry for myself creeps in and I wonder what did I do wrong, where did I make a wrong turn in life that now I'm 42 and no children. All I ever wanted was to be a stay at home mom and do the car pools and pta etc. But here I am stuck still working a job I really don't want. I never was career minded and so working so much feels so unfulfilling. I know it's important for finances and all especially in this economy. But if I had to make sacrifices to be at home with a child I would. But on the outside no one would know that I have those sad thoughts because usually I am a pretty happy person.

MaryKD, i sould have written your post word for word even your age is the same. I have woken up in the middle of the night crying when I actually had a pretty good day. The sadness is debilitating sometimes. It is so hard some days, but try to store away some strength from the good days to help me through.

Thanks so much for sharing. It truly captures how I feel for sure!

i had one of those days yesterday.... i was not in a good place at all. You just want to scream "why us, why me WHY, WHY, WHY??" i can only speak for myself but I almost think it would be easier to deal with if there was a reason or a cause to why some of us conceive. Maybe it would give some closure, but to be told that all is fine and it's just nature makes it more frustrating for me.

I was 3 days late this month and for me i'm a normal 28 day girl... I had ALOT of PG symptoms, naseau, peeing every 5 minutes etc. I would have bet the farm that I was PG, then sunday some cramps and of course it comes. I was fine during the day but as the day progressed by mood worsened and I got very sad. it carried into the next day and I was an emotional wreck- even took a "mentally" sick day at work...

Today's a new day and a new cycle of Femara so fingers crossed and I wish you all the best of luck- emotionally & physically. i hope you have partners that support you in all aspects as this is one of the most frustrating and emotionally consuming journey's of our lives.

Hugs to ALL

Exactly. I wish sadness would move somewhere else! Hugs to each of you!

Big hugs to each of you! Lots of love!!!! I completely understand.

The heart is such a tender thing. We do the best to carry the weight handed over to us, and sometimes we just need to set it down for a moment and let our hearts hurt. I wish you all a few soothing tears, and then the strength and courage to pick back up and go on.

All these posts took the words right out of my mouth. Its a sadness that never goes away its always there. Sometimes worst then others. Some nights I cry myself to sleep.HUGS to everyone. Infertilty is such a heartbreaking experience.

I totally know that sadness... I try so hard to avoid her, but she always finds her way to me at some point. Thank you for sharing!

I suppose it's a sad we just learn to live with--make friends with. I do the best I can, however secretly I can't wait to break up with her. It will be an amenable break up, yet I don't think I'll miss her too much :-)

yep I cant say it any better myself The sadness never completly goes away but with time and patience the sting lessens a bit and you learn to cope but its always there