I'm so sorry (((HUGS))) I know what you are going thru, I remember before I was given my little miracles it seemed like my whole family was pregnant, bothe of my cousins 1 was working on her 3rd, my best friend, but the worst of them all which I had a really hard time with was my brothers GF... I couldn't stand her from the begining and knew she was gonna be a horrible mom.... I remember crying to my husband and telling him how it wasn't fair, why did she deserve a baby.... well of course I'm happy now cause I have my nephew, but she ended up marrying my brother, but divorcing him wwhen he got sick, took my nephew from him and us ( by the way I moved in with my brother to help with my nephew) so when she took him it was like losing a child. She abused my nephew while she had custody, her new BF abused my nephew...thank God we got him back....she has had 2 children since. It seems like those who shouldn't have children have them so easily, then people like u and I who would give anything to be a mommy can't have kids without heartache and struggle. I will never know what its like to get pregnant naturally, or to have a normal pregnancy. But, trust in God, let him lead the way, you will see it will happen.... sorry you are going thru all this, I know it hurts.

Oh yeah and to add to this mess, at one point her and I got into it, and she told me I was jealous cause I couldn't have kids!!!! Deep down I was, but I didn't want her to think I was jealouse of her, I was just jealous of her being a mommy..... she is a B**** sorry that was me venting lol

lol your ok.. venting is good.... i just want to curl up an cry my self to sleep with my teddy hubby bought me! I feel so hopeless an like no one else is going through this. I know differently. But of all my friends n family iam the only one with infertility problems an its breaking my heart litteraly. I have chest pains from the stress n pain. I feel times like i can go on that i need to be a mommy an feel the unconditonal love of a baby. My husband wants that love too. I can tell her hurts like i hurt. An it seems this has made our relationship stronger. I totally understand abou the b**** part my bb.i.l ex is one! but it gives me hope that you have your babies! i know one day god will bless me. I know for now i dont know what to rely on my faith or not. I have given up sum hope. I have my bad days an good days. More bad then good an they are bad when i hear babie news BC i want to be the one on the other side saying IAM PREGNANT or WERE EXPECTIng....... i cant wait to say those words but until then ill live in my own perosnal INFERTILITY HELL!!!!!!!!

Most nights I cried myself to sleep, I would pray and beg for God to show me some mercy, please God please God all I want is a baby, I want to call my mom and tell her she is going to be a grandma, I want to tell my husband he is going to be a daddy, I want to know what its like to hold my own warm bundle of joy in my arms, and sing to them and rock them to sleep, I want hug and kiss my own flesh and blood and know that my love with help them grow.... ugh its a horrible journey IF but I think God gives it to those of us he knows can handle it (kinda a gift) cause when we finally do have our own babies it makes us that much better at being a mommy cause we went thru soooo much to have them.....

I have cryed myself to sleep alot lately. I believe like they were even trying n they are living my life! The one i long for. Of course they are happy now that they are prego. But still i cant help but feel sry for me. N hubby is getting to the point of breaking i can tell an he is a very calm n go with the flow person.... its getting to him i can tell...

I feel like everyone I know is Prego as well. And a lot of them are. I have made a list of people I know who are not Prego... and who I don't think will get prego in the next year. I put it on my fridge. It has helped me! Everytime I hear about a new pregnancy I look at the list and remind myself that not everyone is Prego... It just feel that way. My life is totally focused on TTC, so it feels like I am the only one who is missing a Baby bump.

totalloy understand...... i feel like i need that baby bump to m,ake me happy at this point

Sitting here feeling miserable and came across this post. I'm at the point of giving up. Sitting in limbo waiting for our next doctors appointment and honestly not even caring if I go. I know the post is days old but just want you to know I'm praying that God will give both of us the faith to keep going.

thanks christina, an go to the appt. maybe they will ahve sum good news for u n hubby! best of luck an baby dust!