I am sorry that you are here, but you definitely came to the right place with lots of people who understand exactly what you are feeling. For myself I have learned that I have to feel what I am going to feel and let it all out before I can move on to the next step- whatever that may be.

Is your mother-in-law aware of your infertility struggles- that it is something you really wanted? It may seem like a silly question, but for myself, I have had a hard time opening up with some people about my struggles, so when they say something insensitive, they have no idea how their words/actions have affected me. I know my own mom means no harm, but every time she runs into old friends, I get a full status report on how many kids or grandkids they have now. Unfortunately for us, children are a common bond that so many people share and constantly want to talk about- it's so annoying.

I definitely have my days of raging anger and hurt, and I hate the person it turns me into. I just take it day by day and know that eventually the anger and hurt will lessen and I will come up with some way to cope with it. I feel like I whisper "this too shall pass" to myself on a daily basis. This is my journey and the path I was given to walk, even if I don't like or agree with it. I can't focus on what anyone else has or what they are doing, because in the long run it is not going to help me in my own struggle and it just adds weight to my burden. Your own anger and hurt will lessen and you will move forward with this situation. Sending you peaceful thoughts... :)

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles. I know how you feel. On my birthday last year, my mom planned a family get together where my cousins 8 month old pregnant wife was there to ruin my day. I just kept staring at her belly and quietly cursing my mom in my head! She knows what we are going through, but is so oblivious as to how things affect us. In fact 90% of the people in our lives are oblivious to how they're actions/comments affect us! I have days where I can't even look at a pregnant person and then days where I could actually care less about them. There are good days and bad, but eventually we all move forward. Life is too short for us to dwell on the negative forever. Embrace your feelings of anger and sadness when they come. It's normal to feel that way. Just remember to give yourself some tlc and do things that make you happy to help fight those nasty feelings. Sending positive vibes your way!