I'm so sorry to hear your situation.. I am trying as well to concieve and no hope I completely understand where your coming from on that.... It's heart breaking...have you tried clomid ??

I can feel your pain. Unfortunately I can relate to how you feel so you are not alone in your struggle. It's not fair and I wish I could make things better for the both of us!

Thank you so much for your replies! I feel I'm not alone now. We've tried literally everything. Nothing worked and it makes me crazy. I'm trying so hard... Everyone around is getting pregnant. Everyone around gave birth, rise children, post their photos in social medias. Everyone around live and enjoy their lives. And I'm just existing and waiting for happy life to come. The most depressing is when people ask if we have kids. When they hear "no" why they just can't change subject? Why they continue to ask questions which cuts like a knife? I hope this suffering will end eventually. I try to stay positive. I try not to give up. But I'm so exhausted...

Hello everyone who is still reading my thread! How have you been? A couple of weeks ago I decided to search the internet. I was hoping to find some information or stories of other women who have same situations as I do. I thought maybe I could find some ways out from my infertility struggle. I found some information about donor eggs. I was thinking maybe this option will suit our situation. But my research stuck even not started. The reason of this is actually I am back to my depression after breaking out of it for a couple of days. The thing is I went to hang out with two of my friends. We didn't see each other for quite long time. And they invited me for a dinner. Usually I refuse to go but this time I was feeling a little better so I decided to go. We had a little chat. We were laughing and remembering great moments we spent together. And then one of my friends said she has some news to announce. And guess what? She's pregnant with her third baby. I was shocked and I could barely hold my tears back. I feel myself such a bad person. Instead of being happy for her I felt sorry for myself. I know this is wrong and of course I made everything to seem like I was so happy to hear those news. But I actually wasn't. And it's not because of her or her news or her third baby but because of me. I know that they didn't even plan to have a child. They didn't even plan to have the previous two. For them it's just easy and they can have a child whenever they want (or don't want). And then she was like "At first we didn't know if we want to leave this baby or not but then we decided we will keep this child". Well I didn't know what to say. I was just sitting there, trying to smile and not to cry. And then when I came home I let my feelings out. Later that evening I went on my Facebook page. I was hoping to talk with one of my internet friends who also struggle with infertility. And guess what? I was scrolling the news and I found out that one of my ex-friends will have her second baby with a man who made her to do a couple of abortions in the past. I'm not judging. I just don't understand what have I done to deserve infertility?

I read both of your posts and I can relate to everything you said and how you feel except no doctors can find a reason for my infertility yet. I'm 38 and have been trying since 21 years of age...your still young and you have time to try different treatments, remedies, and or natural products. God hears our prayers and he is preparing us to become a mother we aren't like everyone else we are extra special and he wants us to be prepared for our blessing that we will receive. I just pray everyday and try to stay occupied by doing things that I enjoy. I think you will be fine and that you will conceive if you just relax. When my friends tell me they are pregnant with their second or third I just take those feelings of hurt & disappointment in myself and put it into a big ball of positive energy and volunteer to be the god mother. God does not like jealousy or to be questioned. I know it's hard. My sister just had a baby at 37 that she wasn't expecting & she has a 16 yr old. I was so hurt. I wanted it to be me so badly but when that baby came I love her more than anything. At first I didn't think I could even hold her. So I came to the conclusion that I need to stop looking at my friends around me and to just focus on me in the process of loving my family & friends and their babies...don't give up!!

I feel the same way. We have been trying for four years and my pot head neighbor just got pregnant and my husband and I eat right,work out stop smoking cigarettes and still nothing. That's why I joined the support group. I'm pissed off at God big time because I don't know what I did wrong but then I think...I will not let this defeat me. I keep my faith and hope and just never give up hope. I wish I could give u more than that but I'll pray for you and try to stay positive.

Hello dear Miranjer! Thank you for your reply. I'm so sorry you faced long to ttc. Your words are so wise. Now I have a lot of things to think about. You're absolutely right. Jealousy changes nothing and only make it worse for me. I understand that. But sometimes it's really hard not to ask "why this is not me who is pregnant?" This is my biggest dream. I really hope this dream to become a mother will become a reality for both of us very soon.

Hello plumberchic! I'm so glad to see you didn't lose hope. I know exactly what you're talking about. My husband and I do everything possible to increase our fertility. We want to make sure we make everything which depends from us to be able to have kids. I really try to believe that this is just a test from destiny. And one day we will be blessed to have a wonderful child which will completely change our lives. Your words are really inspiring. I will think about what you've said every time I feel like I want to give up. I'm really grateful for your support. I wish both of us to become mothers as soon as possible.

Hello everyone who is reading my thread! I decided to update it with some news. As you guys know I went to hang out with my friends recently. And my friend announced her pregnancy. So she called me on Saturday and we had a really weird talk. She told me that she noticed that I was upset by her news. I tried to explain that I was happy for her but I was just sad because of our long ttc. And here the weird part started. She was interrupting me all the time, telling some nonsense. Then she told me “this's not my fault you will never be able to have children". And I was just like "what are you talking about?!" She hung up on me and left me in shock condition. Honestly I had no desire to call back and argue with her, trying to defend myself. Yes we've been trying to conceive for 8 years and nothing worked for us. But that doesn't mean that we will never be able to become parents! She already made a decision for herself as she said I will be childless forever. I really didn't expect to hear such words from her. I don't know if I should continue to be friends with such a person. Instead of support I received a knife in my heart. How could she be so mean? She knows about my fertility struggle. I guess she knows that those words are painful for me. And she throws them to me so easily. Words can really ruin everything. Though I was really pissed and then I was really sad... But I don't let this situation influence my intentions.

I've already mentioned that I'm thinking about using donor eggs. I made some research. I think this option is perfect for our situation. My next step will be consulting with my doctor. If he approves I will start a thorough search. It would be really nice if someone shares the experience using donor eggs!

Hello everyone who is reading my thread! As I've told you already I was planning to meet my doctor. I wanted to have a consultation about my health condition, infertility and the most important - if I can use donor eggs. Today I met with my doc and I did some more analyzes. The results will be ready in a week. My doctor told me that he will look through them. Only then we'll be able to discuss if I can be a recipient of donor eggs. Also today I met my old friend from college. As it turned out she's also looking into donor eggs option. I should say I was so happy to talk to someone who gets the whole idea of the situation I'm in. I should say when I saw her I wanted to pretend I didn't notice her and just escape from the street. But she saw me and she came up to me and started the conversation. I was preparing myself for questions about children. I just wanted this to be over so I could leave. But our conversation went in a completely different direction. I'm really glad she came up to me! I think it's a destiny which brought us together. She's the person I needed in this period of my life. She advised me to visit a new reproductive center which opened in nearby town a couple of months ago. Prices there are pretty high. My friend(let’s call her V) told me there is a really great doctor and I should visit her. V had a consultation with her a couple of months ago. V was very satisfied both by doctor and by the center itself. V made all needed tests and the doctor advised her to use donor eggs after looking through the results of her analyzes and medical history. So I've already made an appointment. I asked my husband to take a couple of days off at work. We could visit the doctor together. I'm so excited though very nervous! Next two week I may get all answers I need. I really hope to receive good news. Wish us luck!

I'm sorry your friend was so rude. I'm sure she feels like your not genuinely happy for her. So she lashed out. I know she wanted to call you out but she didn't need to be degrading and insensitive. I hope your able to get pregnant with donor eggs.

hi MinaMina cool chick here hope this helps but I am having donor egg ivf done in spain with my fertility problems it was a no brainer and opted for it straight away at my clinic would love to get to know you all coolchick11

Thank you for your replies girls! I appreciate your support. I don't have much to update. We're still planning to go to that center in the nearby town. As soon as we come back home I will make a post. I wish everyone all the best with their journeys! I hope all of us will make it.

You are not alone hun I feel the same as all you lovely ladies everyone getting pregnant everyone giving birth rising a little family it's hard but what helps me is keeping busy and chatting to people that are going through or starting the same journey as me

Hello everyone! I'm sorry I wasn't updating my thread for a while. Thank you for your comments! I appreciate each of them. I have some news and I really want to share with you. As I've told you in my previous post, we were about to visit the reproductive center. My husband had a couple of days off so we went there together. The center was really great! I did all needed checks and analyzes. When results were ready we had a consultation with our doctor. I really liked her! She was so open hearted. She told me I have low ovarian reserve which means that said our chances to conceive naturally are very low. As we've been trying to conceive for 8 years already, it will be better for us to turn to donor eggs option. She told that of course we can wait a couple more years, but chances are very low. We've been talking for like an hour or even more. I think she was the first doctor who got me. I am so happy we had this meeting! It's kind of sad that our chances to conceive naturally are like 0%. But now I know what we should do next.

I have already started my search for a donor and information about the procedure. But now I have so many questions! I really hope you will help me to find answers! Is there anyone who was donor eggs recipient? I hope you will share your experience with me. Where should I start? What should I look for? Any information will be nice to hear.

There is one thing which bothers me actually. I wanted to share it with you and ask for advice. The idea of using donor eggs was on my mind quite a long time. But I can’t say we discussed it(with my husband). I told him that I think about it but we never went in depth, if you know what I mean. So now when doctor told us to go for donor eggs it seems to me my husband is not fully on board. I tried to talk to him about it but he avoids the topic. Actually I didn't catch if we have de ivf or not. At the same time he doesn't tell that we should wait for a couple more years. What should I do in such a situation? How did your husbands react to the fact that you should use eggs of a donor?