I know that you all will know what I am feeling. I am so blessed with a wonderful hubby, my parents and brothers and I really had to struggle to stay positive today - church helped, as always, and I know that I have to be able to accept some things that I cannot change - my age - now 44 and never had a child!!! I know that God will bless me but I saw a record number of babies today at church and it was TORTURE!!! There must be something that I am supposed to learn from this experience. I had a chemical pregnancy last February and ever since that happened, I am even more hopeful but yet, not hopeful?!! We have been considering another round of IVF this fall and are looking into adoption - just don't know what to do??? And of course, still try the old fashioned way!! I feel bad though, because I am thankful that I am still living - it could be so much worse!! Guess, I am just venting and trying not to think that it may be over??:(

I trust that you all will experience what your heart desires - much baby dust to everyone:)