Well, I was in my 2ww and it ended early today when AF arrived. I went to bed full of hope and excitement because I was so sure this was our month. Then at 5 AM I was awakened by cramps and sure enough it was AF. I feel so depressed and disappointed. I don't know how much more of this I can take.

I just joined DS this week so I'll quickly tell my story. DH and I have been tcc since July 2006. Right away we got pregnant and then I miscarried at 6 weeks. After trying for a year after that we finally had all the tests done. Everything was fine except DH was a little low on the % of normal forms so my doctor recommended IUI. We started seeing a fertility specialist. The first cycle he put me on Chlomid - it was awful. It thinned my uterine lining and for some reason my doctor still recommended trying the IUI that month. I just wanted a baby so bad I went along with it. Well, I got a BFP and we were so excited only for AF to arrive the very next day. I had a bio-chemical pregnancy. Then it took forever for my beta to go back to zero so we skipped the next cycle.

The cycle I was just in was my first with Femara. My doctor swiched me from Chlomid because of my bad reaction to it. The Femara cycle was going perfectly. I had no side affects and had 2 really large follies. DH's count and mobility was great. The IUI went smoothly. I was convinced this was our month.

I know this is only my second IUI and I've read so many posts about people having success on the 3rd or 4th but I just feel like it's never going to happen for us. I am so sick of this emotional roller coaster. Every single month for the past 2 years I feel like "this is it!" I analyze every little ache and pain in my body thinking I may have pregnancy symptoms. Then AF comes and I feel so depressed.

It shouldn't be this difficult.