Infertility Support Group
In vitro fertilization is one of the most common and utilized ways of treating conception problems. This support group is dedicated to those beginning their journey with IVF and needing support. Join the community and share your experiences, advice, and story with people going through similar challenges starting a family.
I recently got a job in the speciality pharmacy that focuses on infertility treatment. It has opened my eyes at the costs of these medications the largest copay I've seen is over 6000 dollars. I'm in shock at the costs and even though working for this pharmacy offers benefits. I just can't see myself paying astronomical amounts of money for procedures that may not even work. I have patients that tell me they maxed out their credit card and want to use a different one. It's mind blowing. I just feel like Jesus totally schooled me. If I can't get pregnant for free it wasn't meant to be. It will be 2 years in may I been off the pill. My track record lets me know its me thats barren. All my exs have kids. So clearly they weren't infertile it was me. My boyfriend now won't get his sperm tested. But thats ok its me. Its me Its me. I'm 32 I have eaten in 2 weeks. I can't eat. Its over. I won't go broke trying to have a baby or babies. I worked hard to get to this income and good credit and a good 401k and investment in owning home. Babies are expensive and paying to get pregnant is super expensive. I work with patients everyday that are paying high amounts for gonal f crinone ovidrel hcg lueprolide estradiol etc etc. These infertile patients quickly hit their maximum allowable benefits with their insurance and can't understand that they maxed out what insurance will cover. Women pulling out loans. Its like every time I which is everyday of my career in pharmacy I'm getting more turned off by investing in this. Plus it may not even work. THAT SHIT IS FUCKED UP!!! I'm angry at my body for not doing its job naturally. I have no family I'm a orphan. Just a boyfriend. I'll die alone. I won't be able to feel a pregnacy. Feel my baby kick watch my baby walk graduate get married have kids. I will leave no legacy. I have to think about myself. No more can I say when I have kids or I want to be a mom that does this. Every mothers day will be depressing. I have no one to connect too by blood. Quite frankly I'm not sure why I'm here. My soul is broken and blacked through and through. Because at the age 32 I have made the hardest decison of my life. As I write this crying. I choose to not have kids not because I don't want them but because I can't. I trust Jesus and his plan. I'm forever broken.
But not every infertility problem has to be resolved through expensive medications and IVF. Have you had blood work done to see if if there’s a hormonal imbalance? That can be a quick fix. Have you had an ultrasound to check your uterine lining? Also an easy fix. I don’t want to give you false hope or talk you out of your decision to accept this fate, but I do wonder if you might at least explore a diagnosis from a doctor before you give up completely. Some fertility issues can be resolved relatively easily.
Hugs. Hang in there.
I hope you are able to find comfort and hope in something, whatever that may be, whether it is accepting a decision not to have a family, or building a family some other way, if you want to.
My heart breaks WITH YOU on this. I too am an orphan. The only family I have is my husband. I feel exactly the way you do!!!!! I turned 40 last month and we are 100% holistic on our ways for TTC. This far in the game. we will NOT go the medical route. For one, in no way can we afford it and two, in no way can we go through the additional stress and let down. I have questioned God on why am I here? What's the point? I take care of my loving husband and my fur babies but big deal! Anybody can do that. Once I am gone, no one will ever really know that I was here. Sounds so terrible to write that but that's how I feel. I pray each night that God just helps me get through this infertile Hell. I thought when I got married, I will FINALLY have my own family.......and then...Nope, not going to happen. It's hard to get through but I go on, each day, on and on and on. I look forward to having peace in my life, I know I'll have that........one day. I hope you find your peace in life as well, no matter what that may be for you :)