I am new to discussion groups in general. I just need to get this anxiety off my chest. I'm 28 (almost 29) years old. My husband and I accidentally got pregnant 5 years ago and we have a beautiful daughter. I've been off birth control for 2 1/2 years. We weren't actively trying to get pregnant but we weren't preventing it either. I got pregnant again about a year ago and had a miscarriage a week later. Since then I've been charting ovulation and obsessing. Each negative pregnancy test feels like a stab in the heart. Each time a friend gets pregnant I cry with jealousy. I finally called the doctor last week. I'm going to get checked out by my obgyn. I haven't set the appointment yet but it could be a long process. I just hate the unknowns. Is there something wrong with me? Are we not going to have any more kids? I just don't know and the waiting game is awful. Plus I feel like a failure (and I'm sure that's common but still). Thanks for letting me vent.