Incest Survivors Support Group
Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...
I met with my therapist this morning and was able to talk about the deep pain my child part feels about the past. I was reading a book and it triggered the feelings my child part has. He did not have parents that taught him anything about life at all. What he was taught was "do not talk, do not trust and be thoroughly ashamed of who you are.".
I am 64 years old and that child part has been searching for a mother that would comfort him, protect him, fairly discipline him and all would be forgiven, teach him that feelings were validated and letting him know he deserve to feel loved all this time.
What he got was terror without comfort of any kind. Before he was 4 years old he wanted to wake up from the nightmare, but knew he wouldn't. He wished he had never been born and wanted to be dead. He was denied a childhood and his mind was permantly scared.
Today I am feeling all that deep pain and know that it's too late for that child part to ever be mothered. I was incredibly angry and now deeply sad. I'm crying slightly as I write this. Feeling all that pain.
I am 64 years old and that child part has been searching for a mother that would comfort him, protect him, fairly discipline him and all would be forgiven, teach him that feelings were validated and letting him know he deserve to feel loved all this time.
What he got was terror without comfort of any kind. Before he was 4 years old he wanted to wake up from the nightmare, but knew he wouldn't. He wished he had never been born and wanted to be dead. He was denied a childhood and his mind was permantly scared.
Today I am feeling all that deep pain and know that it's too late for that child part to ever be mothered. I was incredibly angry and now deeply sad. I'm crying slightly as I write this. Feeling all that pain.
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I feel so dirty and used I was drunk and passed out at a party when I came around some guy was on top of me rapeing me he covered my mouth and told me to shut up afterwards he got up and got dressed and said I better not tell anyone I found my friend and reported that I had been raped after having medical checks and them getting DNA I've taken the morning after pill IAM just so depressed and...
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Upon his departure, he remarked, "I am in many people’s pockets; no one will believe you." Have you ever grappled with the silence that follows sexual assault, where the perceived impossibility of being believed necessitates self-censorship?
Thank you so much for caring.
My experience of the inner child is that I had to get in touch with her in order to free her from terror. This has taken quite some time but today I know when she is around. She loves colour, flowers and music and sometimes sees things (as if) for the first time. She told me her name that took a while! She loves to enquire about things.
When I first sank into clinical depression I was so anxious about EVERYTHING. I would get into the car and burst into tears and had no idea why! I lost my job had to give it up. I was terrified to be at home and even more terrified to go out anywhere.
Slowly I became more and more confident and some time later learnt about the inner child. I am with her always now and can reassure her if she is concerned or fearful.
I hope this is helpful carry on the good work with your therapist.
Daisymay ... ps ... (whispers) I am older than you!