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Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...

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PTSD from incest

dsf95
dsf95

PTSD, or my version of it,  was triggered last year by an assault. Started having nightmares again in March. My husband had to wake me up because I was moaning in my sleep a few nights ago; that hasn't happened for a while. 


If I was a veteran with PTSD, I'd get some sympathy. But I have trauma from something no one wants to talk about; incest is a word you're not allowed to say in polite company. 



It's not even that what happened was " that bad." My uncle pinned me against my grandmother's bed post in her room. She had just died a week before. He fondled me with one hand and held me against the bed post with another. He is 6'5". He was angry that he'd be going to jail for molesting a boy at his church. This was almost twenty years ago. 


I got away from him and he grabbed my breast and yanked it down hard. Being kicked in the vagina last year creeped me out because I remembered that sick, incapacitated feeling. I didn't realize that before. 


It's hard for me. I am not the only victim; my mother and brother feel that they are the "main victims." My


mother screamed at me once, "at least you weren't RAPED!" What happened to me has been minimized to my face.


i just want to say that all incest victims deserve sympathy and we are "veterans" of something horrible. We wear an invisible Purple Heart.

nikkole
nikkole
Hello dsf95. I'm sorry to hear that your uncle did this to you. You most definitely deserve sympathy - going thru something like that is horrible. I'm sure its extremely painful to not get sympathy from your mother who is comparing your tragedy to hers - it's a very cold. You are a veteran to something horrible and your right, no one wants to talk about it - especially when it's someone you know, a family member, who you should be able to trust. I sympathize with what you went thru - it was a horrible thing to do to a little girl - to anyone. Many positive thoughts going your way.
donnawanda
donnawanda
What happened to you WAS that bad and was compounded by having a narcissistic mother who couldn't even empathize with you in your pain and wasn't conscious or caring enough (one or the other) to have protected you from the brother she knew was a danger to you. Having a narcissistic mother is a whole wound in itself that cannot be minimized. It meant we went through the traumas of our childhood knowing we were on our own in the face of danger.
dsf95
dsf95
Thank you Donna and Nicole.., I was 17 at the time of the assault. My mother was abused by her brothers and mother and really is still childish. I can't believe she even brought us to her family or that my uncle had so much access to us. He had never been violent with me until that day
LivingWater
LivingWater
No matter what happened to somebody else, you are suffering from your OWN trauma. It's not appropriate for someone to compare your pain to theirs. And of course theirs was always "worse", so they minimize yours. Try to detach from your family members.
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