ok i came back to this site a few days ago i left and came back some may remember me from my pic anyhow my story is one that happened by my cousin years and years ago, for many years i blocked it from my mind a few years ago i was flooded with emotion and turmoil of what happeded, i did not struggle like everyone else i have read so i am not sure me being in here is fair. i am a survivor of this, i have alot of quirks i learned to deal with before i came to the realizatoin of what happened, maybe thats why i handle all of this as well as i did, i was 5 when it all happened, due to my circumstance my biggest fault i have is trusting men, i always wondered why i felt uncomfortable with male friends or male role models, i can easily talk to women, i prefer it, my wife does not understand it totally and does get mad, but knows why i do it, for the longest time i felt myself not worthy of alot, like i was a failure but again could never understand why, i have very little self worth. upon realizing what happened i had a flood of emotions, i dealt with them better than most i assume since i learned to deal with them because it was just what i did.

Now i have read some posts on here and i have come to a realization, this forum has not changed, i posted on one post where i young girl is afraid to post because she is afraid of reprocussions or that her post will be scrutinized for what she says; theres a post saying dont bring other topics into this forum, who is anyoen to judge what belongs where if it affects us from what happened to us, so please be careful what you say it could be a trigger for someone or it could be something that scares people out of getting support they need, we all already have issues we dont need to be afraid of what we post either, if anyone has a problem with what i say dont post it in the open inbox me, thank you