Hi all. I'm brand new here. Having a really trying day. I'm 41 years old and have been dealing with hypochondria for over 20 years. The past 10 years have been the hardest to deal with. I've convinced myself many times that I have had pretty much every form of cancer that you can think of. I seem to have any obsession with it. Both of my parents passed away from cancer at the age of 60 so that's probably a big reason why. I have three children (ages 13, 11 and 9) and a wonderful husband of 23 years. I'm scared to death of something happening to me or one of them. I feel like whenever something bad happens that it's my fault and that I'm responsible for it and the person's pain that goes with it. So I worry that if something happens to me that my kids will be devastated and their lives would be ruined and that would be all my fault. Lately I have been trying to take good care of myself. Keeping up on doctor checkups, mammograms, paps, etc. I even joined Weight Watchers and have so far lost 23 lbs. The last 3 or 4 days I have been having heart palpitations so I decided to go to urgent care this morning. They did an ekg and it came back abnormal. Doc said I have a RBBB. It's a disturbance in the electrical impulse. She said it probably isn't anything to worry about, but is setting up an appointment at the cardiologist for me to make sure there isn't any underlying condition. I am scared out of my mind!! Every negative thought is flooding my mind! Every worst case scenario! I am not a patient person and hate waiting for appointments and test results! I am a believer however and am praying to God to help me. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to calm myself? Also, has anyone had/have or know someone who has/have RBBB? I do have Xanax that has been prescribed before and can take it but I get so drowsy that all I want to do is sleep and my kids need their mother. Any advice is appreciated. Thanks in advance!
I cant stand it anymore. Always worried. Always hypervigiliant with anything in my body. Im doing therapy but im not feeling better. Does anyone getting better? Please tell me. Thank you.
I am 28 years old and I have suffered from hypochondriasis for as long as I can remember. I feel as though no one treats hypochondriasis as a real mental disorder. I hear people all the time joke "Oh, I am a hypochondraic" and I can't help but to think to myself, do you really know what it is like to truly be a hipochondriac? This literally takes up 90% of my mental capacity during each day that...