Ive never been the one to panic over anything small but now since ive had my kids everying is sending me up the wall! Now I have a huge fear of dying and leaving them. Especially my 1yr old. Now whats different from everyone else that has hypochondiais that i have actural health problems. I have vertigo that makes me so dizzy i feel like blacking out and when i feel that i think im passing out from dying..so i panic..also Had surgery two yrs for a bain condition. That sloved a lot of my issues but I still think somethin will happen as far as my shunt gettin infected (obviously it hasn't yet in two yrs) After having my son a yr ago I end up getting congestive heart failure. Had test done and it shows my heart is back to normal function now but im still thinkin I can have a heart attack at any moment. I feel like the drs are missing that "one test" I need to determine if im really sic so they can fix my problem. Im scared to death that they wont and im gonna die. I hate this feeling!! My docs are not taking me seriously...Lastnight i was driving to the store and felt like i was going to pass out while driving..so scary..maybe something was wrong with me..maybe not but i did check my blood pressure when i got home and it was 160/102 so thats high..see why im gong crazy!!!!! Its not in my head something is going on..My dr already thinks im crazy so he doesn't want to help me. I know how drs treat their patiets with this conditions! I work around them enough!! Where do I go? Who do I turn to for help?
Im also a nurse and its so funny how I can be the one to offer advice to my patients but when it comes to myself im so clueless as if I kno nothing!please help
Thanks in advance