I literally am going crazy. I always had anxiety and depression and thought my life was bad. I stressed about trivial things like money and a pimple on my face, until I actually suffered severely traumatic events and just wish I could go back to the old me. Last year I had an abortion and while tripping out I left the father of my children, madly in love with him but on advice from others. I ended up being raped and it changed my whole life. Ruined chance of being a family. I’m highly paranoid now and suffering post teuamatic strsss. The guy I knew and he didn’t listen to me and didn’t use a condom. I’m a mum, never did I think that would happen and I did not know the pain that awaited me. I’ve never felt more down in my life, I have been severely sucicdial. I feel like I’ve failed my kids and ex. We actually had a good beautiful life before all this. I love him but things will never be the same. After years of being with someone, having a family and then it all being broken and now I keep checking for warts. I feel itching and burning everyday. Doctors say it’s nothing but I’m convinced it is. I did get confirmed I have high risk hpv now and I’ve never felt this way, I know something is not right down there. It hurts all the time and so sore around my vagina. It’s not anything else so must be hpv that cause warts
Has anyone ever felt this? Please tell me yes! I’ve had it for years but now I am focused on it and I feel it so much like I can feel my heart beat all over my body and even in my neck and head like my head moves with my pulse. Today I’m home alone my kids aren’t home and my husband is at work and I’m freaking out.
First off I want to say how happy I am to have found this page. I don’t know anyone else in real life that deals with this and I feel like a burden to anyone that I discuss it with. I started crying when I read your posts because it is so relieving to know that even though I feel insane, I am most likely not, and I am certainly not alone. I went through a phase 3 years ago where I thought I was...