Please don't kill yourself ! this is only your anxiety taking over your thinking . I want you to know that most of us have felt this way and hurting yourself is not the thing to do.
Feeling comfortable comes with time and doesn't happen over night.
The only advice i can tell you or give is to learn. Learn the heck out of this virus and understand it as much as you can. I'm always telling everyone that eating right, working out at least 4-6 times a week for 30-40 mins a day, eat fresh whole raw fruits and veggies , stay away from processed sugary ,oily, fried foods, drink lots of water, and take your vitamins.This sounds like a lot but you have to find a way to connect your mind and body together in order to find a ''happy medium'' please don't be so hard on yourself ! seriously your life isn't over....even though i wanted to strangle people when they said that to me, but it could be a lot worst my friend and i mean a lot worst.
I have to think that way or else i'm going to have a pitty party and get down in the dumps.
Take care and pray if you have to, also breathe in and out whenever you feel anxious

Like Jalva said, PLEASE do not kill yourself. Those kinds of thoughts will only worsen your condition as stress plays a very big factor in your immune function! Try to relax, you have your girlfriend to get through this with. My doctors were not sure if I had warts or not because they went away in a week but every time I feel one bump I go into a state of panic (I did last night!) only because I have not told my boyfriend since I'm not yet sure what it is. I'm going to the gynecologist yet again on Monday (I go like every couple weeks) because I need the reassurance, and although she thinks I'm crazy she doesn't mind seeing me so often. So find something like that to help you feel better. How you are feeling is the reason I didn't tell my boyfriend because I know he will blame himself given his past sexual history even though he doesn't have symptoms of the warts. I feel the mental pressure of the virus is significantly worse than the symptoms that come with it. I right away started to think of it as getting zits, you can't control when they come and go, but eventually with time they will go away for good.

Read the above thread entitled "info about clearing the virus" ... which is in an average of 8 months! The low-risk strain of warts that you two have spontaneously clear more easily than the high risk. Most doctors say you don't even need to tell new partners after you've been clear for 6 months to a year! And just think that you won't even have this problem because you have found the girl for you. Many others are suffering through this alone. Many people are facing losing the ones they love from things like cancer or HIV. This is only unpleasing to look at, and it affects your life as much as you let it. Keep remembering.... In time this too shall pass.

Think positive thoughts,
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Yes I agree with with the comments above. Its hard to see right now but things will get better. You have to fight through this. I was diagnosed in January to February with high and low risk HPV. I had to fight to get back on track and to be honest, for the last week I have felt pretty damn normal. And its a great feeling. At first I also felt like my life was over and dirty and gross and all of that. But you know what, even if you feel that way, its not going to make things better. You and ur girlfriend are still the same people. This does not define who you are. Try and get back to living again. The little things do matter and you will be happy again. You just have to keep pushing. I was SOOOOOO depressed at first. I went to the docs, got on ant-depressants and xanax, had my mouth looked at, started seeing a therapist, couldn't function for a while and now things are getting better. Positive thinking really does help. And it will get better. Remember, 80% of people have this virus and most sexually active people will have it at some point in their lives. We just know about it because we have the symptoms. I actually just recently met someone and he is younger. I am hoping when the time is right, and we have that talk, he can get the vaccine. And maybe still want to be with me. I have so much more to offer someone than this virus. But if you let it take control of you, it will and it will fast. Eat healthy, exercise and take your vitamins. You can do this!!!!!