You aren't alone. All of us on tx feel the exact same way. There are some good days, but most are not. Just keep going and you'll be done with it forever.

Don't be sorry for the negativity.......you're gonna have good days and bad days............seems everone goes through it:(

Maybe you over - did on Sat...........and hopefully you will start feeling better again soon:):)

You're doing this again to get better so you will have many more GOOD days ahead:):) (Thats your reminder:):)

Like Gota said. If ur not having physical symptoms you're experiencing emotional ones. Great that you took advantage of a good moment and there definitely are some. Sorry u had to pay for it later. It's not negative it's ur true exoerience. If we can't vent it here where can we? Not so much fun to do it in your personal life and most won't understand although some will try. You are doing this to save your liver, avoid more health problems and live many more years with a better quality of life. But yeah, I agree, it fully sucks! The duration especially, the waiting and all the unknowns.

I can relate to your post completely. Just focus on the prize.

Debbie is ok to complain. I was doing injections everyday, only to find out in 2010 my counts had increased, and I no longer needed to do them. I hated doing those injections everyday, and I complained all the way.
Crilen

I feel your pain, but we have to give it our best shot.

Shot 19 - that is a huge accomplishment. I'm on shot -00000. I have many things that have to be addressed before I hit the meds and the shots - but should be tx'ing by mid-September. YOU ARE DOING GREAT - look how far along you are! You WILL get through this.

I just read somewhere today (yeah, I'm still doing it) that the "new" PI's combined with the old double tx are a lot more difficult for the patients than was originally thought. Well, YEAH, I GUESS SO. Probably just as bad as the old SOC, but at least with the PI's we have a better chance of clearing this monster. I can't wait for the silver bullet. Pre-tx is awful. I am trying so hard to calm down (with my old friend, Xanax on board), but anxiety is always there.

I know for sure that my husband will not react well to my inevitable irritability and possibly hostility. I'm already a bitch. Depression - fine - I go into my room and deal with it. But if I tear into him like a raging bull, things will not be good. But I've got to do this.

None of us are alone thanks to this forum. It is a place to express our fears, frustrations, to ask for help and it's so important. Our friends are HERE.

Clarifying - I can't wait for the silver bullet meant I cannot RISK waiting. Gotta tx now.

amen,,u're not alone...u're almost finished keep u're eye on the prize...a practical rebirth,,,set free forever of the ugly virus.....god bless

Plz don't ever apologize for complaining...... it's all part of it. Look at it this way, U had a really good day!!! Those days are like mini prizes!

When I was on tx, my saying was "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired". And if I had a good day, I knew it would be followed by a bad day or two, cuz when I had a good day, I took it and ran w/it....always over did it just cuz I felt decent"!!

I'ts all part of the process...just hang in there Bestshot, as when tx is over, they can all be GOOD DAYS!

bestshot, those were my exact words a couple of weeks ago...."Someone please remind me why I am doing this!!" Then I came on here and all these guys told me exactly the same things. You see I didn't want to do my shot 8, and you're already to 19! Wayyyyy ahead of me! Congratulations for getting as far as you are! You're a strong woman obviously and will make it through this!
Again what all the others have said, good days when we feel almost human, if we overdo it, we pay for it in the following days, but embrace the good ones! they are few and usually make you smile. Try not to overdo it even though you feel good.
Today, just rest.
Take care,
Kelly

Thanks guys for all your encouragment. But I still have to say being at week 19 and still have to make it to week 48. Wow, very overwhelming. I know I should be greatful for this opportunity and I really am but boy o boy sometimes I just hate myself and this thing called life right now.

Understood.

I'm sure I'll be posting my "NO f@cking more please" thread in many weeks from now. I will need expletives to underscore my grief though. Just the way I effin' roll when i'm upset.

Hang in there, bestshot... It's a tough mo' fo' but you can do it... Come on here anytime to whine, complain, etc. It's real- and it's not being negative..
((HUGS))