Ever since my childhood I've had I'll health or problems. I was born in 74 an 8 week premature baby. Sadly I've been left with a variety of congenital defects or problems. My bladder never developed beyond childhood and my lungs have always caused problems. Being diagnosed with endometriosis at 21 hasnt helped either. But this past year has been just the worst. I collapsed last summer at the British grand Prix and my life was saved by the quick actions of Silverstone medical centre and the on site helicopter that flew me to Northampton general hospital. I stayed unconscious throughout all of this and eventually came round in intensive care 10 days later to be told i had double pneumonia and my family had been told that I was unlikely to come round. That was in July. 4 weeks later, having been transferred home to Cornwall, my lungs collapsed again and I still had pneumonia in one lung. 2 weeks later I was rushed into hospital again vomiting what we thought was blood. This turned out to be bowel contents as my large bowel had ruptured. They spent 14 hours in theatre saving my life but I had pneumonia yet again after vomiting bowel contents into my lungs whilst unconscious. I was once again on life support for 3 weeks for the second time in 2 months. Shortly after discharge my doc diagnosed me with PTSD. Today I was told I'm in heart failure and the prognosis doesn't consider I will live much longer than 5 to 10 years maximum. I'm bereft and have no idea where to turn or what to do. I'm only 41 years old. I can't stop crying and I don't know how much more I can take. Too add to the already depressing news, I've also been diagnosed with ulcerative colitis and it's the worst pain I've ever felt in my life. What do I do now? I'm lost and feel so alone.