I had a big vascular surgery in February and didn't feel right for months.i didn't know my body was producing too much testosterone and my breasts were atrophying. I decided to take dance lessons to cheer me up. I got a crush on the dance instructor. Because of my hormones and history of sexual abuse, I started hyperventilating and it must have looked really bad. I knew he was uncomfortable, but was surprised when he told me he couldn't dance with me anymore because of "something else"... I started shaking from a PTSD episode and he ended up hugging me till the shaking stopped.

I didn't really understand what something else meant, but I found out he felt raped or sexually assaulted. I did not touch him inappropriately ever; I guess I may have been making too much eye contact and sometimes hyperventilating, though not too aware of it.

In September, I showed up for a dance party and he angrily opened the door. He had a bizarre, cruel look on his face and I knew I was in danger. I finally smiled and he smiled back, letting me in. Then I feel either his leg or crotch forcibly parting my butt cheeks. I cried out "dear god please stop" and I heard his voice behind me say "it's okay" I feel bad if he felt raped, but I didn't understand at the time. I had accepted that he wouldn't dance with me and never bothered him again. Now I feel traumatized by the whole thing and don't go back there anymore. My butt hurts a lot, I know this is in my head.