My opinion only.... the way I look at it is, you are only 21, I am guessing he is around your age, you've been together 10 months (should be the "honeymoon" phase still, and all happy and lovey dovey still). No, none of this is your fault. He can not, or does not, or will not, accept what your past relationships (and consequences that you are dealing with) were.... which has nothing to do with him, quite frankly... and maybe just maybe, he is a bit too immature, young, to handle your past and how you wish that you could be open and honest with him. A more mature guy would be perfectly fine with your past (IF you even CHOOSE to share it with him). You say you hurt him, but about what? I saw your previous post and you said you told a little lie here and there, but it seems the big issue is what you contracted from a previous encounter and your current boyfriend just can't get past that, thinks you're lying to him, etc. And frankly, that is HIS problem and HIS immaturity and do you really want to spend the next six months, a year, 2 years, 5 years... defending yourself to this guy (it's only been 10 months, which is NOT a long time together to cut your losses), and him saying hurtful things to you? I would say no, I wouldn't. I would move on and start fresh with a more mature, caring, nice guy. But again, just my opinion. Think about it and if you can deal with this constant stress and drama from him. Again, completely on HIM, all this has nothing to do with YOU. Good luck.

Thank you GirlinCalif. He is going to be 27 in December so he’s a few years older than I am. He has some issues like social anxiety, bipolar, and he’s also fighting an addiction. I love him and I care about him and I feel like for those you love you sacrifice, but we’ve been arguing for so long now, pretty much the entire time we’ve been together and he says that I ruined his life with this disease and it breaks my heart because he doesn’t understand that i feel like it ruined my life. And he thinks that just because I’m not broadcasting it for everyone to see that I don’t care I have it or who gave it to me, that I’m not trying hard enough to find out who gave it to me. I just don’t see what the point is... put myself through the pain and humiliation for what? It doesn’t change the fact that I have it or that I will always have it. It’s just hard because I know he’s hurt, id just wish he’d know that I’m being strong for him but on the inside I’m hurting just as bad, if not worse.

That’s exactly my question too. When and how? Is so hard when you feel that you ruined your relationship and you should pay for it and live with consequences.
Wish you the best

Is this mostly to do with HPV??

If it is and if you really care for each other you can always see a therapist to help you through

You don't deserve to get beat up.... This was a shock to you as well.... You didn't know anymore then he did

I wouldn't take abuse sweetie..... I would let him know that the buck stops here...... Either we treat each other with respect and dignity or it's done

Big hug...… xo

Thank you OIP78. I keep telling myself fight a little longer, because I’m not a quitter. But it’s hard. It’s takes everything in me. All my energy physical and emotional. I just want us to be a loving couple and I’m afraid more and more with each additional argument that we never will be.

SunCloudJD, thank you for responding! He claims I took away his dignity and self esteem. He’s fighting a meth and heroin addiction and most if not all of his friends are too dealing with addiction and help each other in some way get drugs. I’ve never done a drug in my life, I’ve smoke weed once in my entire life so I don’t know what it’s like. He says I pushed his friends away, and I think that I’m better than them because they do drugs and that is far from true. I feel like if he’s trying to get better and move on from his addiction that having people around that do drugs as well will only put him behind if they too aren’t on the same track. I just wish he’d understand that I’m trying the best way I know joe considering this is a whole new world and life to me.

Sorry for what you’ve been going through! I agree with the previous posters. This relationship is way to new to be treating you this way. You should still be all lovey dovey right now. It more than likely will only get worse if you stay. Once the tone is set it’s hard to change. I also noticed you said he was fighting addiction to drugs, that’s also a reason to let it go. You’re so young find someone who adores you and treats you well. You deserve it. I know 10 months seems like a long time when you’re 21, but when you’re 31 you’ll be wondering why you stuck around if you stay.

Hi Key, I think it is time to take the garbage out to the curb. If it is about the past then leave it where it belongs in the PAST. If it has something to do with HPV you have no control over it and tell him where the bear did his thing in the buckwheat. It sounds like you are the target because he needs to feel good about himself and by making you the target it shifts everyone's attention away from him . In my opinion you should give him a choice either he starts treating you with respect or he can leave it is up to him, not you

I feel this way also, but I also feel like I have a heart of gold which sometimes I believe is a curse. I love him and I want to see him do and be better because I know he can. It’s hard, but I feel like there’s still some fight left in me

That's untrue key.... "His" dignity and "His" self esteem isn't yours to take.... That's a lot of ca ca

He's meth and heroin addict, hardly a self esteem and dignity preserver. Dumping on you is a way to avoid fixing himself. Don't believe what he says about you and that you ruined his life.

He's incapable of a healthy relationship. Your relationship can never work if he's not dealing with his own shit. Just think about what exactly you're fighting for. You have to love yourself more than him and more than the relationship.