Things are going great :)

I haven't posted in a while. But I wanted to share with everyone that things are going great! The guy that I have been seeing for a little over 4 months asked me to make things official on Valentine's Day. He surprised me with a bear, flowers, chocolates and a card. Inside the card, he wrote me a sweet message about how much I mean to him and how happy he is with me. At the bottom of the card he wrote, “I love being around you all the time. And speaking of time, I think it's time you were my girlfriend”. I thought it was super cute.

I have now met his friends and his parents invite me over regularly. He appears to really want to include me in his life, especially his hobbies. And he seems to want to check out my hobbies as well. Which is very cool, I think. I noticed he has started to call me pet names more, like honey and baby. We have been having a lot of talks about the future. Especially moving in together. I renewed my lease at my current place for only 6 months. And we have discussed where my current furniture would go in his place down the road. We have had a lot of talks about finances and household duties. We even had a talk about the “M” word down the line, but I feel neither one of us want to rush into that. I feel we are both coming more comfortable with each other and things just feel at ease between us. Last week I had a very rough emotional week at work ( I work in mental health) and on top of that my house was unliveable due to frozen plumbing. He was amazingly supportive and was really there for me. I stayed with him for a few nights and have a couple of sleepovers with my girlfriends.

I am still battling my anxiety and I have become much more open with him about it. He has been amazingly supportive and even asked me (because I work in mental health) to give him background on anxiety and PTSD. The trauma of my past relationship sometimes creeps up on me, the physical, emotional abuse, and the manipulation. I am still working with my therapist weekly and am still reaching out to my friends to help me when I need it. Sometimes I feel this is all a dream. He treats me so well and I think he loves me. Although he hasn't said it yet, which when he's ready he'll be ready; no pressure there.

I am happy and it feels damn good to write that. Honestly, I probably wouldn't be here if it wasn't for your guys' input. I am grateful for you guys truly I am. You guys have helped me more than you will ever know :) <3