Well I haven't been completely open with what's been going on the passed 8 months besides me talking about how promiscuous I've been. I had a major STD and posible pregnancy scare. She ended up not being pregnant but gave me a nice little gift called Clymidea but I was negative on everything else. Clymidea is treatable I dont have it anymore BTW! What's really messed up his there's a chance I could have HIV because it can take up to 6 months to be detected after it's contracted or sometimes even longer so now I'm going to be getting checked twice a year and wait a while like a year to make sure that I don't have it. I've acted really dumb, did some really idiotic things, condoms broke, and it's because I simply wanted affection from almost any woman that I could get it from.

If you just got out of a relationship and the breakup was horribly tough on you, if you feel desperate, unwanted, or unloved just know that you have value. Don't go doing what I did and devalue yourself. Don't act out of desperation. Give yourself time to heal. Learn to love life again and make the appropriate choices to be the best person that you can be.

I only posted this to discourage those who are thinking about going down a similar path. IT'S NOT WORTH IT!