I’ve been hospitalized twice in the last week, and just today I checked out and was told to rest. My mom yelled at me called me unhelpful because I didn’t (couldn’t) help her pull out the garden or lift the mower to drain the oil.
She’s even threatened to kick me out and not pay for my tuition for school, which is THE ONLY reason I would stay. She’s verbally abusive all the time and my wounds I got can’t heal properly because she keeps making me do stuff like lifting a mower.
I want her to love me again, but everything I do is always wrong to her, and it often hurts me physically.
Honestly I don’t know what to do.
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